Aside from religion, agnosticism and atheism, there is one profound reality. We, and everything around us, exists. Why? Regardless of a God or natural circumstances that might have brought everything into what we now observe as reality, we have matter, energy, time, mass, intelligence and being. But why? Why at all should there exist anything at all? And if not, what exactly is the definition of non-existence of any existence or nothing? Is any of this possible? How is it that we can perceive such paradoxical and intrusive thought patterns as something deeply complex as non existence verses what we see all around us? Are we black or white, truth or lies, one or zero, a series of binary code that leads us into our supposedly perfect understanding yet bound by our computer language of logic that makes us unable to comprehend the ideas of an existence outside of our physical neurotic logical thinking patterns? When I try to imagine anything outside of our own existence, I can't help but wonder how it got there in the first place. And without it, the possibilities are dangerously close to driving a human mind into a paradoxical loop of insanity. Not blackness, but the lack of anything. Even so negative, that the negative itself is non-existent. How!??! It seems as if either we exist, or we don't. However, as we can plainly see, we do. But how? If it were nothing but nature, where did this nature come from? If it were God, where did this God come from? There really are no answers no matter which stand point you choose to use as your crutch. We are lost. We are confused. We exist, but we don't know what exist means.
Nothing itself is something. Everything is nothing. True 'nothing' we can't perceive, yet if it exists we are nothing's nothing. If it doesn't exist, as nothing is something then everything is nothing. Based on the apparent cyclical linearity of all things I view the latter more probable, though they're both actually the same. We're stuck. We exist in nonexistence, perpetually. The great thing about infinity is the beginning is the end, and it happens all the time.
why must there be a reason maybe shit just happens and it started too long ago for us to find out exactly what happend yet
Existence or non-existence. Opposites are derived from the same source. If you're asking yourself why there is existence itself... If there was nothing , no start , no Big Bang or whatever , then you'd have to ask why nothing exists. Either way it's a question that can't be answered. Actually... The question is the answer , yet the question or answer it's not questionable or answerable.