Hey all, lately i just cant seem to find happyness in anything. Yea, even smoking, im high right now. It seems like my lifes in a rut. Im 18, i dont have a high school diploma, I live in a shitty fucking apartment. I dont have a GF. Alotta my friends are all off to college and making somthing out of themselves. So what do? I just relized i dont wanna be living like this. I made a few bad decesions the last few years, I got fucked over by the police. But ive never done anything to harm anyone, Im not a criminal, i dont sell hard drugs. Im not trash. I dont wanna sound like im just feeling sorry for myself but, It seems like all my friends over the years have all had everything just handed too them. Like there nice cars, money, clothes, just seems unfair. I never hurt or disrespected my parents, just my mom decided she didnt wanna have me anymore so I had to move in with my grandparents when i was 16. Well they have both passed away now. I guess im just really lonely.