Super Bowl Sunday

So I got a great way to end Super Bowl Sunder! /sarcasm

So, it being Super Bowl Sunday, I figured I'd spend the day with the family, and watch the game since I don't usually watch football. Well I offered to go out and finger foods and a couple pizzas and shit. Had to go to like 3 different stores, a couple gas stations and finally the pizza place.

Well my mom asked me to get some sweet shit for my niece for when she comes over (I really didn't find this necessary since we had a shit ton of snacks for the Super Bowl). Well, it turned out that I didn't have enough money, so I didn't buy them. Well I get back to the house and my mom jumps on my back about it, and goes on about how I'm jealous over my 6 year old niece (You can see why I called her retarded) (I love how I'm jealous over my niece getting a bag of Teddy Grahams, Oh how I despise her, lol), and I call her retarded for thinking such things, and proceed to tell her the retarded one in the house is the one that smokes cigarettes.

Back story: My mom found out about my 2 plants and he told me to get rid of them, and she told me she wouldn't tell my dad. I was more worried about my dad knowing. Well, upon telling her that I'll get the plants out in a couple of days, I tell her to TELL NOBODY. I made it very clear that I didn't want her telling my grandmother (Shes cool, but It's just one of those things you know( Found out that she dried out a couple plants for my uncle way back when he still lived there). Of course she tells her. Buy anyways, back on point.

So me and my mom are bitching back and forth from the kitchen to the living room. I'm calling her obscenities, and such, and she asks for examples on how she's retarded. I then go off on her about her smoking and such, and that if she smokes cigs, she might as well be retarded if you can't read the warning on the side of the pack.

Well, with my dad sitting in his chair, she goes, "Well whos the retarded one for smoking pot and growing plants". Of course I denied it, and continued to bitch at her, and then I started to ignore her. Haven't talked to her since about 3PM.

Well it turns out that my dad didn't have a problem with it, and he just said for it to not happen again. I feel bad about that because I still have one going. I already know someone is going to tell me to cut it down in respect for them, but I'm like 2 weeks from harvest. That's not happening.

I think today was the day I almost smacked the fuck out of my mom. I was seriously about to do it on the spot, but then at the time, that would have mad me look guilty. But I'm still pissed and that smack isn't off the table quite yet.

Tuesday is gonna be an awkward day at the gym for me and my dad. I already know that conversation is gonna come up. My dad's a firefighter, Ex-Army, and has a LOT OF COPS FRIENDS. So you could already view his stance on drugs. But he already said me smoking isn't worth any arguments since he says he enjoys the occasional beer.

 

Think of a genuine answer instead of coming up with the generic one. Of course I already know that. But if you would understand the situation I was in, you would understand why I was yelling obscenities. She had no reason to bug out. She bugged out over a kids snacks that didn't even matter because we already had FUCK LOADS of snacks. I was planning, for the Super Bowl, I would bring my LCD TV into the Living room and we all watch it, but my mom kinda fucked that up. I was looking forward to this dad, but of course, just like everything else in my life, shit has to fuck up.

Obviously I feel bad about my dad finding out, not because he would punish me or anything, but since I was 13, me and my dad never really had that great of a relationship, and when shit finally starts getting better between us, this shit has to pop up. That's one of the reasons why I said the things to my mom. Now I feel like he's disappointed in me and shit.

 

I know, but if you knew how my whole family treated me, you would understand why I'm close to my breaking point. I feel like the damn black sheep of th family. They bitch at me about getting my GED, but then turn around and bash me on my thoughts of moving to Oregon when I get the funds up. It's like they want me to live in this shit hole of a state, because we are family. Mainly it's the people on my moms side that thinks that, my dad's family is scattered across the states and in Canada. Never really knew any of my dads family. Never met him parents, and I hope I get to mean the others soon.

 

You have no idea how much he shocked me by how he reacted. It's almost like he was turned off for those couple minutes me and my mom were arguing.

Smoking weed is one thing. Everyone does it, but Growing is a different story. I know it's wrong, but honestly, it's one of the only things that makes me truly happy.

 

Well, I plan to get my GED, it's just I need to brush back up on my math before I drop $95 to not pass it. That would suck. Pretty much everything you've typed is how it's been. If I'm home, I'm in my room. I do realize hitting family is one thing, but I will never hit a woman. But last night was a complete different story. Plus, I'm sure if I hit my mom, My brother would probably beat my ass.

 

She tried to apologize today, saying, "Oh, he already knew, I just kept him from going into your room. he's know for a couple weeks now. We said to each other to let it go, but after last night, it slipped out"

I then told her that she was acting like a 2 year old that didn't get her way. She was like the little brother you won't let play your video games while you're away, if you don't let them, he'll snitch on you to the parents about smoking. That's exactly how she was.

It's gonna take some time, buy I'm sure I'll be cool with her. I mean, she's a bitch, no doubt, but she's my mom.

 

I know right. I already know I'm not #1 Son, but shit, nobody is perfect. I wonder how many times he's argued with his parents.