Good evening GC. So here's what's up. I am wondering if any of you have heard of a philosophy, belief system, book, article, anything at all that may share the following perspective on "life." I feel as if my mind has evolved but my body has not. I recognize myself, my family, friends, and others as human beings, but only as human beings. I recognize that we are all mammals living in a space with other mammals, and other animals, and it seems so pointless to me. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not saying life is pointless let's all drink kool aid What I feel, is that I am already connected to a greater essence, that is beyond our limited senses. Similar to the cells that make up our bodies, but only in concept. So why do I matter? If I am just a "cell" with over 6 billion more like me. I feel like none of "life" matters really, and that is exactly why it is so beautiful. We are just given a certain amount of time to be aware of our human bodies. But my mind is different, I see my physical body, and know I must reside in it until my mind, or my soul, whatever it is that makes up my sense of individuality, can get out. Maybe then I'll be reconnected, or have a new awareness. I do not believe in heaven or hell. I think everything at it's deepest level is all one thing, and the differences make up the whole. But why then do I have a sense of individuality? With this belief you might ask, well why are you asking us for help if were "outsiders." And my answer to that would be that your not an outsider. You are another part of my essence, that I am not aware of, and you are not aware of my connection to you either. All of this may seem jumbled, but I had to get my idea out best I could. Language sucks because I cannot accurately, truly, and precisely express my feelings to another, with only twenty six letters and ten digits.