Tonight I smoked with two friends of mine (they're a couple). After dropping them off I began dwelling on the negative things in my life and the loneliness I was feeling. I came home, laid in bed and threw on some TV like any other night. Suddenly around a half hour ago I was hit with a sudden realization. I realized how mentally driven your attitude really is, rather than being controlled by the things going on around you. When things go bad you have the choice to try your hardest to make them better even when it seems hopeless. I wanted nothing more than to get up, clean the house, do some work for school, research things I wanted to know more about. It's such a positive high that makes me feel so much hope. I have no idea why, but it's just a perspective that has rushed over me. Positive vibes to everyone from a positive perspective. Hopefully I'm not just way too high.