So I recently got in an argument with some friends regarding the way I am, and it ended up with them cutting ties for the moment. The problem they had with me is how calmly I could talk about a couple wrecks I've been in that should have resulted in me dieing(and possibly others(pedestrians) since in one of the wrecks I was drunk), my enjoyment of smoking a bowl with some friends as we drive around hot boxing, and past drug use(Bathsalts and research chems namely). They said because of how unphased I am, or something along those lines, I'm a sociopath. One of them even said to go kill myself lmao At the time I shrugged it off, but now I'm interested to see if that holds any truth. What do you guys think? All I can say is that I'm pretty chill. I lead a pretty normal life as a middle class 19 year old attending a university (Rock Chalk Jayhawk!), have a girlfriend who I love more than anything in the world, and a loving, supportive family who I care about dearly. But years and years of internet use and crawling around the weird ass corners of the web have made me pretty jaded. I can't say I've experienced many of those things, but I've definitely seen videos and pictures. When I wrecked my first car, after all the shit was sorted out and the remains of my vehicles were towed, I had a buddy pick me up and then we went and chilled with some mutual friends at his house. We smoked bong bowls and played SNES, hardly even talked about what happened hours earlier. Not because it bothered me so much that I started to block off the memories into a deep corner of my brain, but for the exact opposite. I just really wasn't bothered by it, not by the fact that I lost the car, not by how if my car crashed a few inches to the left my body would have been sheared in 2, nothing. I was grateful that I was alive, I had went over how the situation happened and I took it as a lesson learned. Then I moved on with my life. And that's how I get through just about every day. I've got some more stories if you need examples.