Whats up grasscity Ive been smoking for a long time, but since last spring i have been smoking every day. i mean just about every single day atleast 2 times a day. for a while i was the happiest i have ever been, i was handeling my business and feeling great. i was doing great with my girlfriend and everything was perfect. for the past 5 months about, i have been pretty much numb. ive been so high and out of it 24/7 that i do not face my problems, and when i think im dealing with stress by smoking, i am only saving it for another time and building it up. me and my girlfriend are in love and things are awesome with us, we plan on living together forever. but for the past couple months i have been blowing her off sometimes and not noticing how i effect her. i am trying to take 2 weeks or so off from smoking and also drinking. i am hoping that by doing this i will be able to become clear minded and more thoughtful. its become so bad that when i get compliments on anythign i take them and i dont get a good feeling inside. i cant really gain any TRUE happiness unless im high. and smoking isnt enjoyable any more, its just my way to escape. any help would be appreciated. do you think itll get better if i cool down for a bit? and in the mean time, what can i do to fulfill the emptiness inside me that is usually replaced with smoking. i am not sad and depressed and suicidal at all. i have an awesome life i just need to appreciate it more. thanks for reading all this stuff guys its a lot haha Any comments welcome!