sigh. i'm baked right now. so i'm just gonna talk about shit. so the past few weeks of my life have been kinda crazy. i've always been a really shy person, especially with girls, and I recently diagnosed myself with social anxiety. it really blows. but anyway, a couple months ago this girl just came up and talked to me and a few weeks ago she gave me my first kiss, and she said she liked me but then like a week or two later she basically just said she didn't like me anymore. But her words were "I'm just not interested in a relationship right now because it's summer." Whatever the fuck that means. Anyway. I just can't stop thinking about her and she's pretty hot and I'm sure she still likes me a little. And I've been realizing lately how badly I want a relationship and to get laid. It's all I can think about. Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh yeah. Boobies? That's what popped into my head when I asked myself what else I should type.. . btw, I just smoked at like 2:00 in the morning (i'm still high i have a really low tolerance), I just biked to the park and ripped my bong out in the open. Everything was completely still and empty it was crazy. I love summer.