Okay so basically im at crossroads in my relationship with my girlfriend. we've been going out for 11 months and we've had 2 big arguments so far. The first argument was about whether or not i loved her or not. After the first time we had sex she said i love you, and me, being an idiot, said i love you back because i had no idea what else to say. And after that i just kept saying it to her, and i went along with it, diggin myself a deeper and deeper hole. I know, horrible decision on my part. So after this, we tried resolving it but all i could do was reassure her that i'll still be her boyfriend, so we just brushed everything away and slept it off. But i guess after a couple has their first argument, that honeymoon stage is over and things change. So after this, i told her i smoked weed for the first time with my buddy and i got really high, and everything came back. The first thing we argued about came back because she couldnt trust me. So i ended up saying i wouldnt smoke ever again, and well seeing as im posting on this forum ive been smoking ever since. (this is unrelated she still doesnt know that ive kept smoking) so overtime i just got tired of her, like my feelings for her were fading away, because of the arguments that we had, there's no trust in our relationship and the lack of trust just turns me off to having no feeling cause that shits always in the back of my head. I guess its cause these 2 problems we had were never resolved and we went along with it and made it worse. I became more cold and distant, normally i would feel like talking to her and texting her but i just got lazy and sometimes i didnt feel like texting her back. So a week ago i told her i want to break up, we met up and we never really broke up, we just postponed it and said we'll talk about it next time cause i had to go. And now she's telling me that she's completely forgiven me for those 2 things that i did and that she wants to try again and losing feeling for each other is normal. Part of me wants to be back with her, cause dont get me wrong, i had ALOT of good times with this girl, even now, thinking back on the moments we've shared brings a smile to my face. But the thing is that i don't love her that way and i'm afraid that if i continue this i would be just leading her on and eventually become cold and distant and hurt her in the process. so, to those of you who've bothered to read this long ass post, any thoughts and opinions? what do you think i should do?