Because this is my favorite sub-forum (and also because I don't know where else to post this), I'd figure I'd air out my dirty laundry and see if anyone can give me some advice. Last year during Spring Break, I took a 6 hour trip up the coast in the worst storm I've ever seen, just to be with my high school sweetheart for one night. This kid was my first love and pretty much my first everything. When I arrived in Berkeley I was ecstatic and couldn't wait to spend the evening with him. He made us dinner and we smoked bowls and "watched" No Country for Old Men. Whatever, none of that is important. We started to get pretty frisky and I was giving him head and we moved to the bedroom. As soon as he tossed me on the bed, I felt this overwhelming wave of nausea and threw up right there on his bed. I was mortified, but he didn't make me feel guilty about it (I've known him since we were 11). We tried again back on the couch, and I had to get up in the middle of doggystyle and run to the bathroom to throw up again. After I left I chalked it all up to food poisoning from the crazy Vegan dinner he made us. Fast forward to Saturday night. I am hanging out with this new guy that I am extremely attracted to, and as we're laying there on his bed just barely touching, I feel that wave of nausea again. I get up, walk briskly to the restroom, but nothing happens. I just look in the mirror and see how flushed my face is and I'm sweating a bit. I haven't been eating much lately, and have lost 20 pounds in the last 4 months. I am constantly feeling sick to my stomach because there is nothing in there, but I can't force myself to eat. It's a vicious cycle, if I eat I barf, if I don't eat, I barf up bile. So my question to y'all is, do you think that being really turned on is making sick, like an anxiety thing? Or is it because I'm just too weak from not getting proper nutrition? I haven't been intimate with my new guy yet, and I don't want what happened in Berkeley to happen again with him. And before you tell me to go see a doctor, I don't have health insurance/money.