K - i'm a sex addict, but have been experimenting since i was 9. i didn't start smoking until i was almost 19, and didn't loose my virginity until one of those times ;P. christian household, tried to wait, blah blah all that bullshit. now i live with my gf and wonder if my pot lovin makes me want other kinds of lovin. i know my problems are caused primarily by something in my past, but am just curious how pot might be affecting me in the area. also, anyone done some regressive hypnotism or something of the like to find out what happened to you as a kid? i also have some dependency and emotional issues that often indicated being sexually abused when you're young. i've been addicted to porn since i was 10, being heavily addicted at 13. i have unwanted and intrusive sexual thoughts. my whole problem might just be because of the taboo placed on it in my family, but who knows. my sexual obsession started before the porn at age 10, which is why i don't simply blame it on that. by 11 i had stolen porn videos from stores and masterbated every shower. i didn't hit puberty until after i was 13, so no i didn't get off. this led to anal play. now, a year and a half into living with my gf i am starting to want some of that more often but don't know how i would introduce that to her. throughout my obsessive highschool masterbation, anal play wasn't a regular part, but every once in a while. i'm being open so i really don't care what you think of me. i'm not gay and have no problem with gay people really, except that the thought of touching another guy like that really grosses me out. i nkow that the anal stuff and sexual emotional issues might mean im supressing a more complicated issue like that, but i really just don't think so lol. yes, i've considered it and don't think i could ever even bring myself to experiment with a guy. i did wanna be a girl when i was 8, but i think i remember that was mostly just cause i wanted to see some pussy. lol maybe alot of this is normal and i'm just too horny for my gf.