okay blades, i need some help. I've always had trouble with my grades since freshman year of high school, i'm a senior now and i'm scared this will continue next year when i go to college. I know education is important and i honestly want to have good grades, it's just like... i can't do it. I only recently started smoking so it's not like i've just let weed control everything in my life. I can crack down for like 1-2 weeks at a time and complete all work/study, but then i slowly go back to just totally blowing everything off. Even if I try to do the work, I usually just sit there and, literally, open my desk and start playing with random shit ( like disassembling pens, wtf). A friend of mine said it sounded like I had inattentive ADD, but idk, it seems like if that were true my parents/teachers would have brought it up a lot earlier. I just want to be able to understand/maybe fix just what the fuck is wrong lol. My parents have said they wont help pay for college if I keep showing this lack of motivation, i want to be able to talk to them about how i feel like i just can't do it.