so i really dont know how to describe what this thread is about or what to post in it so im just gonna start because i just have to say some stuff to complete strangers to feel better i think. P.S. i am extremely fucking high right now i am about to go on a sober vacation tomorow so i decided to smoke all 5 grams of silver haze i have left and are down to a dub of dank that i am currently still smokeing cuz im gonna finish it off (yes i know its a waste whatever) so im 18 male and in my senior year of highschool and i feel like i am in the most confuseing time of my life, i have no idea what i am going to do, i have a job at a pagliaccis pizza but to be real i have no idea what i am going to do with my life, i live with my mother but am constantly staying at friends apartments because of fights i have with her (mostly over my drug use) i guess what i want to say is i feel like i have no purpose in life, im smart and attractive (but not THAT smart and not THAT attractive) and have always been...well cool i guess, and this makes me feel guilty, i feel like i should be content and completely ready for life but i feel like a bum, i have no goals or plans. i feel like i was born instead of a million diffrent people who could of been born and i wonder if im wasteing the opportunity of a life that they could have had instead of me, i wonder if they had been born instead of me would they be haveing a more productive life? i wish i could know wether what i am doing with my life, smokeing and drinking and hanging out with friends, is wrong and bad and that i should be doing something diffrent, i want to know if im doing something wrong but i know i never will and it drives me crazy that ill never know. i feel like the world we live in run by status and money is an illusion to what really matters but the illusion is fun so i want to embrace the illusion, but i wonder if im just tricking myself and im not really happy. im always telling myself im young and i can do whatever i wish but it dosnt make me happy even though it should i dont think any of this makes any sense but its just some crazy shit im thinking, so just tell me what you think of this crazy ass shit we call life and how you feel about what purpose is ya know?