So I recently got out of the denial phase. I have been drinking alcohol for many years and I now know that I am a High Functioning Alcoholic. I have been getting drunk for the last 15 days (tonight included). It is mostly by myself with the exception of Friday and Saturdays when I host a party. When I am by myself I drink Steel Reserve. I don't get so drunk that I black out, I get a good buzz going, usually just one Steel Reserve. But lately it has been progressing to more. One night I drank 3 of these and I was still able to go to work at 8AM the next day and perform just as well as usual. Tonight I am on my second SR and I have had plenty to eat and enough water so I feel fine. There really isn't a point to this thread, just hoping for some general views. I know this won't get a lot of attention since it isn't about weed. I was just wondering if anyone else is the same? I quit smoking weed and instead replaced it with alcohol. I am always replacing it with something. If I quit smoking weed and stop drinking I try other things. Which isn't good. I have such a great life right now but since I moved out it's been really hard to control my consumption, especially since I have 2 liquor stores within a 5 minute walk from my house. Like I said, no real point, but does anyone have any insight or advice? I always say I will try out some AA meetings but it never happens. My family is aware of the situation but it hasn't gotten that bad (to them). But I feel like if I keep it up something really bad will happen. I have so much going for me that I just don't know why I drink and do so many drugs. Maybe I need to see a therapist? Thanks GC, I've been around here for awhile and it took a lot to post this. As you can imagine, I have had 1 and a half SR's =/
stop drinking immediately you have a problem and it will only get worse if not dealt with immediately from, former opiate addict
Thanks for the reply man. I always tell myself I will stop the next day but once I get off work I always justify it somehow. Tonight included. I bought one SR and said this would be it but I ended up buying 2 more... I really appreciate the reply.
if you're going to have withdrawals you could taper yourself down as in: tonight 3 steels tomorrow 2 steels nextday 2 steels and then 4-5 days of 1 steel THEN STOP
I was looking into that Tapering thing. I thought I would try it tonight but in the end that was just a justification to drink. I know I don't sound drunk at all, but I am pretty buzzing. That's the thing, I can keep my composure but I still get messed up. I sit here typing perfectly fine but I just finished two 24 oz (8.9%) SR's. I'm only 120 lbs, 5'9 =/ So it's not like I'm some big dude..
yeah its called tolerance i used to be able to slam a shot that would literally kill a normal person, nothing to be proud of tbh
Yeah I know about tolerance but I never thought it could hit me so fast. One SR used to get me drunk, 2 and I would be passed out drunk. Now I can drink two and it's not a lot. I know I need help, it's just so hard to make that jump. I know it's just more excuses but I don't know... I am in the Army Reserve and I'm a Tier 1 agent at Century Link and no one has any idea what I'm going through. I'm really quite but I get my job done and my managers see my results... It's just so hard to live, what it seems like, a double life. I go to work, do my hardest to perform, and once I get home I just get fucked up... I don't know, I obviously need help lol.
Dude, I'm not trying to undermine you at all by saying this. But I my self used to drink a 5th a night and could still function like nothing the next day. I would drink in the mornings also, if I needed it that is. It does sound like you have a problem, and you should take it seriously. you should stop drinking right away.(TALK TO A DOCTOR FIRST!!!!!!) no telling if you will get withdrawal symptoms or not but they are not fucking pretty at all. Alcohol addiction is a bitch. It's even harder to quit as you get more in-depth. you should stop drinking now as it just seems to be a mental addiction. If you wait until you get Dt's it will be waaaayyyyyy harder.