I also love the nite and thunderstorms. but you arent actually unhappy because of daylight. youre unhappy because those are the hours that you feel you could be spending more productively and proactively. start taking a little more action toward what you want and you’ll feel much better about the daytime, even if its just tiny lil babysteps I really believe you can do better for yourself man. take your time with it, but make small progresses.
The morning drags on forever and, views look way better at night. I also just hate working in general and studying. I do shit cause I have to. In an attempt to be successful. However I wish I could just live off the land but, this isn't 1886 anymore so, I just have to try to integrate myself into the 21st century adult life. Just gotta suck it up. I hate it but, shit has be done. I'll hate every second of it to. I can pass classes but fucking hate it. I could also work but hate it. Everything makes me depressed that involves pressure but, I never give up. Because I'm not a bitch.
Im actually quite in agreement with you about hating working. I just understand that I have to comply with how society is right now..... so Im constantly in search of the least compliant ways to comply. I want a healthy combination of flexibility, mobility, money, and interest in what I do. my whole goal in life is to just pursue that combo and hope it finds me some success. but if not, I dont need much. so far Im doing well.
I wish I could just grow all my food, bud and be off grid. But the government doesn't like that. I also wanna have many solor panels. And live out of a small ass shelter. It would be a dream to be unemployed and, just sell bud however its an unrealistic dream. All I just really get is: A shitty living arrangement with my parents or rent a ghetto apartment. And go fucking hangry and grow in a closet.
My dad worked (recently retired) in a state hospital and on full moons they have to lock em down cause they go crazy af sometimes...shits no joke n not a myth jail n prisons is like it too Sent from my SM-J727P using Tapatalk
I'm proud of my buddy, first grow ever using only 150w hps in a closet with minimal airflow. She is an unknown bag seed 3 weeks into flowering, 3 gallon pot, FFOF soil using only dynagro bloom nutrients. What you guys think? Sent from my SM-G955U using Grasscity Forum mobile app
I killed the Croissant lmaoo I fell asleep at like 3:30am then woke back up at 7am wondering why my TV was on