So I was out of cash but I had some coins saved up. Turned out to be $19 and change. So I pour it into the "penny arcade" at TD bank and get my receipt then it prompts me to check the tray at the bottom for rejected shit. So I reach in and a few coins fall into my hand then I feel a bag and there's coins in it and as I keep pulling I find 10 one dollar coins which I knew I did not put in so I figure someone forgot to take their rejected coins so I'm like finders keepers I just got $10 dollars for free. There was also a few other random us coins. So I go to the counter with my receipt and pretend like the dollar coins were mine as well and ask if I can have them as bills. She tells me to just put them back through the machine. That's when I feel like something isn't right and with lots of confusion and a little guilty conscience I explain that I think somethings wrong with the machine. (I didn't want to screw it up for everyone else, I was worried I might have broke it and there was this kid behind me with tons of coins) So they go and check on it and their like "what the hell this has never happened before" they then tell me that there's a bag that's supposed to have 11 one dollar coins (I still don't know what ever happened to the eleventh) So I give them back. In my head I'm like "holy shit I was actually able to reach in and grab some already counted money" Then she says "is there anything else I can help you with today" so I say yes I'd like to get the 19 bucks of coins I put in that's on my receipt and she gives me them. Then the other random coins (three quarters and a couple nickles and shit as well as a foreign coin) I'm thinking these probably aren't mine either. She says to just take them. As I walk out I leave all my loose coins (the dollar worth of random coins and the change that came with my 19 bucks) on the counter my where the atm is because by then I'm feeling pretty guilty. I know its only 10 bucks but I've been trying to be as honest as possible in all areas of my life lately as a personal goal and I was lying when I pretended the dollar coins were mine. Sure its only 10 bucks and sure I thought it was randomly left by someone not knowing it was already deposited cash but I still feel bad. I feel bad that I kept pulling at that bag seeing how many dollar coins I could get knowing full well they weren't mine. I feel bad for acting like they were mine and playing dumb witholding the fact that I really reached in there and kept pulling. I feel bad for making the kid behind me wait the whole time I kept grabbing the bag of coins and while the bankers opened up the machine to see what was up. And I feel bad for the bankers working this stressful job (I even overheard them saying that everything's been a mess today. BUT I feel good that I didn't just pocket the coins and leave with 10 bucks more than I came in with. I feel as if my new honest lifestyle was being tested and I almost failed the test and created havoc in doing so but in the end I THINK I passed this test with a C at least: I acted like those coins were mine when I KNEW they weren't (I had no dollar coins.) Pretentious liars make me ill but when that pretentious liar is me it makes me even sicker. At least I let them know something wasn't right with the machine and before I left I was like you should really look into whats up with that machine. I'm still trying to piece together what exactly I learned from this but so far I know that in life people get random opportunities to take advantage of situations for their own benefit. And I am more aware of how easy it is to only think of oneself when spur of the moment situations appear and next time something like this happens (and shit like this will happen) I will do my best to be fully honest from the start. It certainly can be complicated when you make the commitment to be as honest as possible but there are moments when it is so liberating in a way thats hard to describe. Being honest is almost an act of rebellion in a society where lies are the way of life for most people and our entire society is a sham built on lies. It feels good to tell the truth and not abuse one's power and to think of others but it is doing this that makes us authentic individuals and puts us at ease and on the same page with those around us. It isn't always easy but it had been a very rewarding challenge so far and I hope I can keep improving as situations arrize which test my integrity.