So I smoked PCP almost daily for like a month in the form of "wet" and one time (which was the first) a dipped cigarette. Most of these times I did not smoke that much, and was basically cyphering the blunts of the stuff with others, and not really trying to get "too" high. I got arrested for being an idiot and "getting smart" with an asshole with a badge and a gun whom proceeded to make up all these false charges and I spent two days in county. It was obvious this was influenced by the PCP since I wouldn't do such epically dumb shit normally and the stuff affects your brain for a while. Nonetheless, I was bailed out, and I stopped smoking the stuff seeing how two of my friends basically gave me a "reality check ass-whooping" (I don't blame them, I mean come on, smoking fucking PCP?) All along this time I was also smoking a bunch of weed daily, occasionally I'd take a benzo or an opiate and was drinking pretty regularly. And one time I sniffed coke and smoked PCP (for some reason this felt so fucking incredible) Skip forward to like a week or two after I had supposedly quit the stuff when I decided to get shit-face drunk, and in this drunken state on this tragic day I ended up seeing the guy who got me into smoking PCP in the first place and stupidly decided we "needed some fire illy". We procured the aforementioned PCP. I smoked the stuff and had an obvious overdose, I don't remember how I got home, but I apparently broke in through the back yard, and I also fell FLAT on my fucking face, (the pavement owned the skin on my cheek bone, yet miraculously I didn't break my cheek) ever since that happened I was never the same. I felt really weird the next day and have had incredible trouble concentrating. I also basically went schizophrenic ( I never sought any medical help at all or talked to anyone about this, but I figure I went pretty batshit) I was eating basically nothing, and I had very paranoid thoughts and I stopped sleeping for a while... A whole month elapsed where I couldn't sleep because deep panic would set in soon as my brain started going "idle". I was dead-bent on suicide for some reason and it seemed like something glorious to do because in this state I realized I was basically I piece of shit dummy who was 20 and had not started college. And I was having trouble finding a job prior to that, so the psychosis from the PCP + every little insecurity I've ever had all annihilating my ego caused me to arrive at the conclusion that dying was the way to go. Obviously I never acted upon these thoughts and realized it was a conclusion made after smoking PCP. I've gotten rid of most of the craziness (i'm still pretty paranoid though) and have some pretty bad social anxiety problems, I have trouble carrying conversations on the phone and in real life (but especially on the phone) and overall my concentration is shit, my critical thinking is shit, and my attention span is utter shit. I'm also kind of spaced out all the time now. All these symptoms were much worse and I even had crazy eyes for a couple of months and would barely speak or leave my bed. It's been about four or five months since the last time I smoked that trash. Now to the advice part... is there anyway to help my brain heal faster and any ideas on how to help manage, or reduce all these psychological side-effects. Is there any truth in the supposed "brain-foods" or brain supplements I could take. I figure exercising will help with recovering a bit (i've been hella lethargic since that last time I smoked that shit and plan on starting a workout routine). I have thus far attempted to smoke weed since it's been shown to cause neurogenesis or some shit and be neuroprotective, but instead of getting high I had a horrible panic attack with horrible thoughts... I've just been eating relatively healthy lately by avoiding a lot of processed crap and i've been eating veggies along with my meals daily. I'm 20 and I still consider myself young so I would hope that there is chance for improvement and rehabilitation, and I pray to any entities out there and hope I can enter college and get a degree and get my shit together overall..