Sooo I'm sitting here and I smoked just one bowl ... And the concept of death comes up (I've kinda delved deep into this concept before smoking weed and it got to the point where .. I conpletly fear death ) this subjects gets me because I try and run it through my head and .. It scares me knowing that one day poof gone into what is unknown. So than my paronrioa plays a scenario of all my family driving in a car and boom the car flys off a bridge to the water .. Than i kick in the windows and get everyone together before the car hits the water and than the car hits the water and we scatter out the broken windows .. I grab my little sister but my moms passed out ... I dunno what to do I think to my self what could be going through my moms head ... How she feeling .. Is she stricken with the fear of knowing she's about to die and she hopes and hopes someone will come grab her that fear of drowning .. I get a feeling that when we die .. Out brain doesn't shut down immediate and for a split second .. We know we're dead ... We can't breath we can't move we try our hardest but out visions fading .. I put that fear in me .. I dunno it's weird .. I play this in my head when I'm high and .. It feels real .. So I feel the emotion firsthand ... I felt my stomach drop the whole body chill u get when u get really scared seeing my mom drop down further trapped in the car .. It's just so realistic and I hate what I feel when I get this paronoria of dieing .. I just maybe I've felt death may sound weird but maybe we all have .. You never remember when you fell asleep .. Sure u know you got tired but you don't feel the click .. You never see the click somehow .. You just wake up .. It's scary because I feel like that's what deaths like .. That click that moment where your awake and .. Click you never expect it you never realize it it's just poof .. And you wake up ... It's scary Sorry ... Had to vent the anxiety off
damn OP if you can't handle weed then stay off of it, If you really think about what you just typed is not okay, get off of it or stop making yourself paranoid and relax, and hope you get better man that sounds crazy.
I always get paranoid that someone is trying to break into my house and I literally freeze for like 30 seconds without even knowing, then when I snap out of it I calm myself down, so I can kind of relate.
i think like that too. I just imagine what if technology advanced to the point where time travel was real... would you want to see how you die? that just creeps me out man ... now im having a paranoid attack sht
I think it's from the lack of sleep and high doses of cough syrup due to the flu and alot of weed because I'm stuck at home with the flu :/ it's just sometimes you get those crazy ideas in your head that are totally exaggerated but you still believe it anyway lmaoo it's like i know I'm lieing to myself about what the fear is but im still scared of the lie I told myself
Well you shouldnt think about that shit man odds are it wont happen.I believe that many people have experienced death and the afterlife and then were recessitated (idk how to spell that)and you can find their stories on the internet.Something that really strikes me about these stories is that all the ones i have read are very similar.I believe in them u should check em out man.From what i gather death is easy and just a transition to complete peace.Life is just a test and time is an illusion.eternity is something like the absence of time or past present and future coexisting.and everything is much more vivid and real and you just know everything you dont have to learn any more.decide if you believe.
Are you scared of death because it's uncertain or because you don't want to die? I get that you don't want to die. Shit I don't think most people want to die either but I think being scared of it is silly. I think I used to be in a similar place as you. The idea that at any given moment you might stop existing used to be scary until I realized that nothing happens after you die. You don't even get a chance to understand that you are dead because you just "turn off" so to speak. At first, that concept was also scary. After all, we're taught that there is an afterlife and that your actions in this life will decide how you spend all of eternity. Without an afterlife, what the hell is the point of a life right? Wrong. The fact that you get to be alive is the single most important realization you can have. It trumps death. Things exist because of chance and you get to experience those things. Not only that but you get to experience life as a being that is aware of his/her own existence. You have the ability to look up at the sky at night and wonder about the stars. You have the ability to hear music and be moved by it. So what if one day you'll stop being able to experience life? You should just be happy that you had a chance to experience it at all.
