Panic attacks. Scared to smoke again..

 
"My mind was not at all attached to my body. I was extremely uncomfortable with the way I felt and wanted to get out of that state immediately. I tried everything I could. I tried taking a shower, tried taking my mind off my doing some house chores, even tried running for a bit, but just could not shake the feeling off. I layed down and shook, drenched in sweat for a straight 2 hours, all while having a full blown panic attack. No fun."
 
^ There's your problem. How you handled the panic attack wasn't optimal IMO. When you get high, it's kindof a commitment. You're going to get high, sometimes very high, and it's going to be for a solid hour or two, and you may feel groggy for up to one more additional hour. That being said, you need to make sure you got nothing else to do, and if a panic attack strikes, you can remember a few key things:

1. No matter what happens, I set up everything earlier so that I can't fuck anything up in my schedule.
2. Sometimes the weed will take me for a ride, and the only thing I can do to make it better is to ride the roller-coaster till it stops.
3. When you start to freak out, you need to identify the fact that you are experiencing a panic episode. When you realize it, simply sit down in a secluded spot, go over your checklist of "stuff I need to do to not be interrupted while I smoke", and be sure it's completed (ie: household chores, studying, work shift is over, etc.). After that, my best advice is to first meditate on a few thoughts or feelings, quietly and alone. Once you feel somewhat calm and you feel ready to interact with the world again, perhaps put on a movie you enjoy and just relax after the taxing ordeal.

That's all  you can really do. Just accept the fact that you have some issues to work through, and if shit goes sour with your high, just be ready to handle it appropriately. Sometimes your mind feels like it's not attatched, but that's not something to fear, it's normal. I remember several occasions where I could feel my consciousness "falling" but it's quite enjoyable when you learn to not be afraid.
 
Also, about the fear of vomitting.. I mean, it sucks, but hey, your body is made so that it's able to vomit. It's a bodily function and if it happens, it'll happen and then you'll be fine again. No reason to fear it. Just keep a bucket nearby or a bathroom door open and ready just in case. Oh yeah, and put a bottle of mouth wash on the counter to get rid of nasty breath/taste in mouth.

 

well, weed kills nausea. if anything it should be what youre smoking to fight the urge to smoke when you get an anxiety attack.

beyond that its mostly a personal mental state issue. when you are comfortable in your mind all is fine. hard to accomplish sometimes no doubt, but its all that will ever truly help the root of the issues

 

My knowledge in this area is a bit limited but I'll try to help with what I do know.
 
Greening out is a term for someone who gets too high too fast and their tolerance level can't handle it, this usually causes nausea or vomiting. So as long as no one does anything beyond what they're used to it should be fine.
 
When you go long periods of time without smoking your tolerance drops and you will get high more easily, so take how long you haven't smoked into account. If you go over a month without smoking you can get almost as high as your first time(For some people at least) so use that as reference.
 
There are multiple types of highs, they can change depending on the quality of the weed, the piece you use, the time of day, and the color of the moon. But typically there's a body high and a head high.
 
A body high is like a state of sedative couch locked relaxation. A head high is clearer, energetic, ready to do stuff. It's possible that one of these highs is more comfortable to you than both, you can control them a bit.
 
Vaping will give you more of a head high and edibles will give you more of a body high. Experimenting with both will allow you to find what feels best for you, or even lets you change the type of high you want for the day and time.

 

I can relate to your situation. I just got my card last week and like you i'm dealing with lots of pain taking opiates and anxiety pills. After taking two hits I felt paranoid and I keep telling my wife that I didn't know where I was, and afraid to even go to the living room. At that time, I was also thinking of getting rid of all weed related items. But the next day my mind cleared up a bit and I want to give it another try, but this time just one hit, and it felt better and encouraged to give it another try. Getting too high beyond your control especially with anxiety attacks can lead to trouble, just phase yourself.

 

pot wasn't the cause of the anxiety...op already had anxiety problems from his childhood
 

 
 
his existing phobia and resulting anxiety flareups were the problem.
 
 
Underlying things, that already were present. Pot being consumed this time was coincidental.
 
 
(op thought he would vomit, phobia kicked in, panic built up...panic attack...)

 

sorry about your panic attacks bro, I get them often too and they suck. Maybe before you jump back in to smoking weed try smoking sleepy time tea? It's not so much a high you get out of it but it just kinda chills you out. That helps with my panic attacks and since I go to a church school and I can't get weed anywhere its what I'm stuck with until I find a new dealer. Good luck man

 

 
 
sativas may aggravate that, being a head high, may want to lean towards indica dominate strains, and moderation.

 

Yeah man, basically it's all in your head. When you feel anxiety coming on just remind yourself that and you'll be back to yourself in no time. Anxiety is kind of a bad habit you can train yourself to forget. Just try to stay positive. No matter what's going through your head realize that you're your own person and if you don't want anxiety attacks you don't ever have to have another one again. Keep yourself occupied with positivity. That way you won't even have time to waste on a panic attack.

 

didnt read the whole post sorry
 
what worked for me was gauging the potency take a small hit wait a couple minutes take another small hit rinse and repeat until desired effects
 
if you start feeling anxious take a couple deep breaths and remind yourself WEED IS HARMLESS. when i would get like this i couldnt sit down and i couldnt think straight i would always go for a walk when it was nice out to clear my head and by the end of the walk i would feel a million times better
 
 
if you are anxious around people then smoke by yourself until you are 100% comfortable with the people you are around (my bro of 7 years is the only one i can toke around) there is nothing wrong smoking by yourself in fact that is when the magic that is bud helps me the most 
 
dont think that passing a hit makes you a pussy either if they give you shit about passing on a hit tell them your at your level stop being douches. learned this the hard way
 
some other tips
if you CAN pay attention when in that state turn on a good comedy (used to pull me right out when i could focus enough) if you CANNOT pay attention take a few deep breaths and get some food in you better yet walk to a mini mart and get some food an drink (if your not anxious about the clerk that is)
 
if its a nice warm evening meditate in the sunset
if its a warm day meditate under a porch
 
pretty much anything that will get your mind off the anxious panicky feeling will work use combinations of shit you like doing.
 
if you cannot get your mind off of it (have been times ive thought i was going to die 100%) begging god to save me type feeling well you will have to ride it out but it will make you stronger the next time knowing HEY i didnt die last time im going to be okay this time
 
it sucks getting that way it really does but dont let it ruin that magic that is cannabis for you
 
 
sorry if none of this is even close to what you where posting about

 

 
glad i could help
 
an yea ive had that heart thing as well its EXTREMELY hard not to focus on a heart that feels like its going to jump out of your chest an it scares you to the point of "oh shit im dying"  my cardiologist (heart doc i have a messed up heart as it is) taught me a few tricks on how to slow it down. 1 get a nice sized bowl (or sink) of COLD COLD water ice helps and as fast as you can (dont pump yourself up) dunk your head in it should feel a decrease almost instantly. another trick would be taking 4 or 5 deeeeeep breaths of fresh air then hold your (left) thumb on your webbing between your (right) index finger an (right) thumb press really hard for a few seconds repeat as needed. also another method would be getting in a cold shower (of course you can turn the heat up anytime you want) if it starts again turn it cold again (not sound methods but should help at least 3 quarters of the time)
 
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(screwed up on the second method) (fixed now)

 

[SIZE=medium]I know and have been in this situation far too often.  I used to smoke all the time in high school but then I quit for a few years.  When I started up again, I could not get high without getting this cold feeling convulsions and clenched jaw.  All I could think was “I'm gonna puke, I'm gonna puke…”.  I too, since I was eight years old, have had this unreal fear with vomiting.  I used to stay up at night worrying “today was gonna be the day I threw up”.  Ironically, drinking too much and puking has cured my negative obsession with throwing up-at least when I'm sober.  [/SIZE]
[SIZE=medium]                I have had many panic attacks as well.  The attacks would happen in school or other public places where I thought I would make a fool of myself by throwing up.  Anyway, weed tends to make me nauseous and tightens my muscles.  I've been to the point where I had to leave the room, or even the party because of my weed bug outs.  I also clearly know what it's like to be in this situation and have everyone bug out that your bugging out.  Like “Oh shit, John is so screwed, he's done, wow, can you believe it?”  When this happens to me all I can think of is that I'm such a fool or whatever and this makes me more nauseous.  This is why when I'm helping people who are too fucked up, I talk gently and encouragingly, because I truly know what it's like in that lonely, hopeless place.  It really helps if you let one of your close friends in on your fear so that if you do decide to keep smoking, you two can have a signal or something if things get too heavy.  This way, he/she could stand up for you and make accommodations if you are unable to do so.  [/SIZE]
[SIZE=medium]                Lastly, I would tell you to not give up smoking (if you were planning to) just significantly reduce the amount you intake.  Personally, I can't smoke on a blunt with the fellas, I only need a few hits for me to relax, without getting into my “panic high mode”.  I go very slowly to ensure I don't get a surprise influx of anxiety if the high comes on later.  Anyway, you are definitely not alone, good luck bro.  [/SIZE]