This will most likely be a long read, but please bear with me as i desperately need help. I know i have made a thread about my problem before, but im desperate for answers or advice as to what is wrong with me and what i should do... 3 years ago i smoked weed with my best friend for like a month, we got into it through a group of "cool" guys who offered us some weed and after feeling the effects of weed we decided to start smoking it, we smoked it heavily everyday, i started noticing that weed was making me very self concious when i smoked it especially when i smoked with other people, i was always concerned about the way i look while i was high, this was weird because i was always a pretty confident person and an extrovert, im sure i started devoleping DRDP, i told my friend how i felt and he just said its in my mind so i continued smoking, i started feeling "fried" i started feeling alot dumber and generally like a zombie. My friend even started commenting that i looked messed up and that i changed alot. Alright, so let me get to the point of my problem, after feeling this way for a whole month, kept on smoking, until one day i smoked with one of these guys and had a massive panic attack. Ill try my best to describe the way i felt. I was walking around the neighbourhood this day and walked into him and he persuaded me to smoke a joint with him, i wasnt really feeling like it because i was already feeling messed up, but i agreed to smoke with him anyway. We bought the weed and proceeded to our usual smoking spot, he rolled the joints while i looked out for the police, like i usually do, up until this time i couldnt even roll joints properly, this guy told me i wasnt even smoking properly, i smoked with him previously and got really high and had a mini panic attack, but it wasnt that bad cause my friend was with me, the guys i smoked with was still messing with me the whole time, that experience had no lasting effects like the horrible one im about to mention... Anyway, he got done rolling the joint, lit it and he took the first puff, passed it to me, told me to take 3 pulls and to hold it in, i felt nervous to do so nevertheless i did what he told me, i took 3 pulls and held it in as long as i could, when the high hit me i started panicking and becoming paranoid, i started getting very paranoid and derealized, i also started getting auditory hallucinations of birds chirping, this freaked me out because i never experienced this before, yet i continued taking the 3 pulls and holding it in until the joint was done, this is when i really started to panic, i was wearing a beanie and it felt like my beanie was burning my head and tightening around it, when i took it off my head was tingling and i had a weird sensation like sonething moving around in there, i also felt a weird sensation of liquid washing over my face, certain parts of my face started becoming wet, it was a very weird sensation. Experiencing all these weird sensations, the heart palpitations, put me into a full blown panic attack i just had to get home, away from people, away from preying eyes. I got up and started walking home, i felt really messed up, the guy i smoked with jumped on my back and wanted to play wrestle this made me panic even more i just wanted to get home and it felt like he was preventing me from going home and was messing with me, i started thinking this was all planned and that he was messing with me, i just told him to leave me alone and let me go home, i could barely speak because of how dry my mouth was. When i got home i went straight to bed exhausted, still experiencing these sensations i struggled to fall asleep but i managed to fall asleep. Heres my problem, when i awoke i still felt these ?sensations, the weird crawling feeling in my head and this wet liquid sensation in my face, i freaked out and told my dad he just said it was mind over matter and that i need to relax and stop thinking about it, well time passed, like weeks and i still had these sensations.so i fell into depression, cut all ties with my friends and became antisocial all because of these sensations. 3 years passed, it was hell because i never found out what was wrong, after getting blood tests, brain scans all of them coming back normal. I accused the guy i smoked with of lacing my weed with some poison he said that he didnt lace the weed and he was still lauging and when i told him about what i was experiencimg he laughed and said that was messed up and that whatever was wrong with my head wasnt his fault said i should smoke with him again, this ultimately made my condition or whatever worse, i dont know what to call it honestly.i know for a fact the weed wasnt laced, he gave me the weed to inspect it, i smelt and the fact that 5 other people smoked with us proves it wasnt laced pretty much. The same shit happened, i got the same burning tightening feeling around my head, i was wearing a beanie this time aswell, the wet sensation was all over my face, i was twitching, my whole body was tingling, it felt like little knifes were stabbing me all over my body when i got home i freaked out and told my dad he should kill me because i thought it wasnt going to end, i wasnt really thinking i was contemplating suicide myself while feeling this way. After my high wore off, everything was pretty much the same except i had this weird bubbling fuzzing feeling in my legs just like i felt whie high, i also started feeling weird cold and hot ssnsations in my body, like my legs or arms woud get a sudden wet or cold feeling in my body, i also get what feels like phantom limb sensation like something is clinging onto my legs and arms. All these symptoms are completely debilitating and i experience them everyday, i have seen countless psychiatrists and they all say its anxiety and phycosomatic disorder.i really cant believe weed did this to me, when i tell shrinks about my problem they look at me weirdly and they ask me if i did harder drugs, and i never did, i have been told this could be due to depression but i dont think its that. Ive been put on Fluoxitine, for depression but i have no hope that this will help. Its been three years, and im still expiencing this, i just want to be normal, i want to wake up and feel how i felt before all this shit... What happened to me? What do i have to do to get better? My life was wondercul before this, its ruinrd noe. PLEASE HELP ME
Well, whatever it is it has absolutely nothing to do with weed this far out. In my medical opinion you're just trippin' yourself out and stayin' in a hole, for lack of better terms, in order to avoid future occurrences of the paranoia you've already stricken yourself with.* *Not to be mistaken for actual medical advice.
There is no legitimate study on the subject therefore it is causal at best. Besides the point that this sounds absolutely nothin' like schizophrenia.
"i started getting very paranoid and derealized, i also started getting auditory hallucinations of birds chirping, this freaked me out because i never experienced this before" You're kidding right?
Idk but that doesn't sound like the effects of weed. Sounds made up but I don't wanna be disrespectful. I hope you get it figured out!
I have spoken to a professional aaandtheysay auditory hallucinations while high is quite normal its when u get them while sober u should be concerned, which i dont.
From smoking weed? Ha. You realize you're on a forum with a bunch of pot heads ?...I haven't heard of anything like that. Has anyone else heard of these symptoms? Maybe this is related to an actual mental health condition...
A lot of mental health problems show up during adolescence. Find something else to blame, if weed caused your problems shouldn't we all have those problems?
yeah man you have a mental health issue. weed probably made the symptoms come more to the light or just made you realize them more, but its not weed that caused it.
It’s interesting how so many people get defensive about weed when they see folk say it’s giving them mental issues. I’ve smoked for 15years and it definitely does fuck with your head like. It’s a hallucinogen, like a mild form of acid. Of course it fucks with your thought process. especially is your abusing it all day every day as many people do. I think too many people take the medical term too far and forget that it is actually a mind altering substance that needs to be respected. there’s a lot of evidence to suggest that taking acid can help with many mental illnesses. Doesn’t mean anyone can go take a bunch of acid and cure themselves though. Chances are you’ll end up dribbling down your chin, covered in piss and tied to a Japanese speaking unicorn. My point being that everything labelled “medicinal” is bad for you. Especially if you do it too much. Paracetamol might fix a sore head but too much will fuck your liver. Chemotherapy cures cancer but ruins the rest of your body. And while smoking/eating weed has undoubtedly got a shit load of medical plus sides, smoking it will still give you lung cancer and taking too much of it for too long can and will fuck with the mind of just about anyone.
Sounds like you have an underlying mental health issue. Weed can exacerbate symptoms of these issues if you're sensitive to marijuana or its cannabanoids.
Nothing like this has ever happened to me in any way, shape or form, and I have been smoking it for over 50 years. I think if you have mental health issues, weed can bring it out, but it is not the cause of it.
I had absolutely no problems before smoking that joint, i feel like one joint ruined my life. My dad who is a pot smoker for 40 years says that this is abnormal he even smoked buttons so is this all in my head?