I am a straight woman although, I've never ruled out the possiblity of fallin in love with a woman, i never considered myself a lesbian cause i am still attracted to men, and never really considered myself a bi-sexual cause there are only few woman i am or have been attracted to. ((I've been involved with two women in my life))But I recently figured out I am in love with my bestfriend ( we are both 20 ). Her aand I have kissed before once when we were drunk and another time while we were rolling, and she has been with women before (had a 3 some in highschool with two of my other friends, would have been a foursome i was invited but i decline) but she refers to that as silly high school stuff. She doesnt rule out the possibility of fallin in love with another woman either. The connection that her and i have is far beyond anythign i have ever experienced, and she feels the same way. She knows me better than anyone else and is the only person i can let my gaurd down with and share everything, and she same thing ggoes for her. Alot of our very good friends are lesbians and so is her older sister, and they always tell us that one day were going to be like 50 years old and realize that were in love with each other cause of the connection we have. We've had conversations about the possibilities of fallin in love with women and she always says if she ever meets a woman she can conect with in all levels she would probaby go for itl. I want to tell her how i feel so bad i can barely be myself around her anymore, part of me knows i should, but the other part is scared she'll push me out of her life and feel werid around me. I know this cause one of our mutual bestfriends is a lesbian and has a huge crush on her and when she told her my friend felt odd around her even though this girl was one of our really good friends. And to make things worse she recently got a boyfriend who is totally non deserving of her, he just uses her cause she is convinient for him. He is WAY older than her (i think he is 29) and treats her like shit and just uses her as a ride from his parents house ((where he lives)) to work, for sex and food. And she started bringin him over to her house, which is where i spend most of my time cause 2 other ppl who live in the house are my bestfriends too, and in the night time when i sleep over i have to hear them fucking in the other room, and that really makes me want to tell her even more, cause i want to be the person that touches her and kisses her and holds her. I dont know if i should tell her or not, part of me thinks she feels the same way about me but i dont really know. Her boyfriend influences alot of what she does now-adays so if i tell her how i feel she'll probably tell him and he'll tellher to stop talking to me. I'm very confused. This is the bestfriend ship i've ever had and i dont want to risk losing it. I know if she tells me she doesnt feel the same way i'll get over it but inorder for her to say that i have to tell her. Advice anyone? This isn't my real GC account i had to make another one cause my friend and her boyfriend both use this site aswell.