Since I've started smoking, things has been really changing... I feel like I want to change. I don't want to be myself. I feel now that money will make me way more happy (more weed, clothes, just whatever you know?) I feel like I want to take more responsibility. I want to work. I feel like my life is empty. I also hate now staying home or studying. But I still get good grades though. I want to chill with people all day. I can't stand home anymore. As a result from all this, some things have changed: - At first I felt it was okay not chilling as much since I have school and I got to concentrate. Now I'm not that motivated to study anymore. I want to chill with people all day. - At first it was okay for me to not chill with girls and even talk with them (everyone would keep telling me just wait and the time will come). Now I'm way "easy going" with girls. Started talking with any girl I see. Trying to hit on any girl I see. Started to get "noticed" by girls more now, at the same time, feeling it's not enough where as before I was in a way worse situation. So started having the urge to "have more" of everything. - Physical appearance didn't matter that much for me. Now, I take care of my physical being SO much. I want to change my hairstyle. Want to buy new clothes. Bought new shoes (2 for 400$). Bought new perfumes . - Facebook for me was for loosers and "please-be-my-friend" people. Now I log in FB almost everyday. I envy people that are "famous" in FB and wish to be like them. - Always thought that the "badass" famous kids are just loosers that will fail at life (and trust me they will, they get locked up like once a month now at least). Now I feel I wouldn't mind being like them. In fact, I feel I'm trying to be like them. Is that a bad or a good thing you think? Is that just a phase that will pass? Or am I just getting out of my shell? Do you guys have anything to say about this? I need some advice please.