No Friends

Discussion in 'Real Life Stories' started by princessdawn982, Jun 11, 2013.

  1. Ok so I'm high and i get these thoughts in my head and I need to let them out.
    I have no friends. Sure theres people I talk to when I'm bored. But other then that I dont have friends. I don't want friends.
    But I cant say that, cause there are times I get like this depressed. Cause I'm lonely. But no one close to me, not even my father can understand why I don't want friends. But there are a number of reasons.
    -My strength has gone. My mother battled cancer about 3 years ago. And I knew that soon she would die. And she did on 8/12/10. But during the time I was watching her die in front of me. My best friend at the time didnt care at all. All she would talk about is her sex life. So I got rid of her. But me and her were friends, best friends for 8 yrs. It hurt me bad. While this is going on I was still watching my mom die. So I used all the mental strength I had to postpone the break down that I was loosing 2 important ppl in my life. At least till after my mom passed cause I didnt want her to worry about me. And I did. Had my break down. ABout 6 months later my ex bff emails me out of no wear and says she just fucked my ex boyfriend that she knew I was still in love with. And I confermed it with him and he told me she was telling the truth. The fact that she slept with him wasnt the worst part for me. It was the fact that she emails me just to tell me this cause she knew it would hurt me. That was it. Nothing drastic happened. But I stopped hanging out with anyone that I hung out with before. And only talk to them through facebook. I spend most of my hours in front of my laptop in my room. Don't go out unless bills and rent have to be paid.
    -Maybe some people might think that I still think of them as friend cause I talk to them. But thats not it. Chatting online is the only way I can get rid of some lonelyness. I don't call them friend cause that way they are not close enough to hurt me and stab me in the back. Because I don't know what will happen to me if I get hurt again. So I'm not gonna let that happen.
    Thanks for reading. No one is going to talk me out of this. So please don't try. Just realize that the world is going to hell. Cause if me (a girl who used to wear her heart on her sleeve and always listen to  her heart) becomes cold and distant. Then so many people might become like me. Be kind to everyone. So no one else has to go though what I have went though.

  2. I completely understand. I can't really talk about it here because I have a bit of pride but you can PM me if you want.
  3. #3 Majestic Raven, Jun 11, 2013
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    I am the same way. All my free time is spent in my room playing video games, watching tv or surfing the web. I deleted my facebook and don't really talk to any of my old friends and it has been this way for about 3 years. Try looking into some therapy or doing meditation, they both work wonders.
    Same goes, you can pm me if you want to talk about it in depth more :wave:
  4. Dear princess Dawn,
       That sucked that they did that to you. But they are the ones that should be reclusive, not you. You give them power to get you to lock yourself up and communicate through the internet? Stand up sista! You have done nothing wrong! Keep trudging your road of happy destiny in life. Don't let them stop you. Now go out there and find yourself a good man. I know they are rare at a young age, but even if you don't want one right away, get out there! Life is full of fun and you deserve all of it. I wish you only the best.
    Danbridge :)
  5. Sorry to hear it.  
    Why don't u pick someone who u like the most out of ur non-friends and then focus on them?  I've had periods of time that I only stayed close to one or two people, and it worked for me.  Maybe just pick who u like best and focus on hanging out more with them?  
    Good luck
  6. Just please don't let one shitty fucking person take away your happiness and your youth. You can still have a good life with better friends. I've been through the same thing, maybe not the same exact scenario but i've had friends fuck me over bad and i just remove them from my life. I know for a fact there are shitty friends(if thats what you want to call them) and friends that are so awesome you can't even imagine life without them.
  7. im the same way, im a bit of a loner and dont really talk to anyone, i dont really see the point in it. they are just fake and everybody only really cares about themselves.
  8. The world will swallow you if you let it.
    Good luck.
  9. People tend to be faker and faker nowadays, mainly because life has gotten fake too so that's all they get out of it. Fakeness. They're forced to embrace that state of mind, whether they like it or not. All of us are in the same boat really, we just haven't figured it out yet. The only difference is that some have others to rot with, while the rest have themselves only. You just care about keeping your head straight through this shitstorm and you might even get something out of it in the long run. That's all I can say. Take it easy.
  10. I think a lot of it has to do with the hyperconnected, social media infused society we now live in.
    Everybody is always trying to put on their best face, even if its not their true face, because we are literally being watched and scrutinized all day long. Life meaning now comes from the number of Facebook friends we have, or the number of Twitter or Instagram followers, and people can be ruthlessly evil to ensure that the image THEY want portrayed of themselves comes across the way they want it to, and everybody else be damned.
    It's a shame. 
  11. We're just slaves to materialism and generally shit that shouldn't even matter that much in the first place. That's what takes all the good energy out of people, stripping them of any good intentions about others. I'd be lying if I said I'm not trying my hardest to stay clear of this bullshit as a person too, because it gets to you.
  12. I feel the same way. Not because I don't want friends but because there's very, very few people I connect with AND trust. PM me some time maybe we can be e-pen-pals to shake the loneliness
  13. no new friends, no new friends, no new friends no no no...

    sorry I'm faded from this red cup. anyway, I'm sorry about your mother. there are some things that you just can't control. don't give up. fuck your ex bff. she did that shit out of spite, don't worry about her. move on. don't dwell on the past but at the same time don't let the memory of your mother fade.

    just start anew. new friends, new life, maybe a new location. like I said, don't dwell on the past, you can't change what's behind you. what you can control is what's in front of you, your future. stay strong. one love. Ice.

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