Life: So this weekend, I finally came to reflect and realize I gotta change my life around. I have to stop all this alcohol consuming crap and focus on my future. It's a cycle I've been living with for many years and it has finally hit home. When Friday comes, I always start drinking heavily and sometimes I don't even sleep because of it and just go into work the next day, Feeling sluggish and shit. And on Saturday I so it all over again, I consume anywhere from a 12+ a night of beer and it doesn't stop there during the week I usually drink 3 or more beers a night. I also usually make my self throw up before I go to bed because I hate that feeling of throwing up. I can see it in my health, the way I act and just in everything I do. It has affected many of my relationships in the past and my current ones, as well. But, thing I hate the most is my relationship with my parents. It isn't like it used to be, they know, whats going one. But they won't say anything or confront me about it because they know its truly up to me to change my habits. I can see it in my mother's eyes, that scary, worried feeling each time she sees me, I've just had enough of it! And I'm now very committed because I've had a death near experience which literally my life flashed in-front of me in seconds. The thing, that came to my mind was my mother, the person who was been there all my life and the women who has supported me in everything, I've done, the way she cares for me. I worried about her, the way my death would affected her. Trust me It's hard to quit, no doubt about it! Trust me I've tried it multiple times, but I always come back. The reason is because I really don't have support from no one. My friends always want to drink, and when I tell them I don't want to drink they get upset/mad, so I just take it but then one leads to 2 and so on...But this time I'm more committed because my life depends on it. Instead of drinking I'm going to the gym, which I've started 3 years ago but never fully committed to it because of drinking. I plan to eat healthy and be physically fit as I can. I plan to enroll Full-time and get back to getting my college degree this fall. And I Plan to be successful and never give up. I just need your help Blades and giving some tips or anything that might help! Thanks for reading!
I advise you to try attending Alcoholic Anonymous meetings in your area. It's a twelve-step program.. If you don't know what this is in my own opinion, EVERYONE addict or non addict needs a 12 step program in their life . Get and use an AA sponsor, attend meetings regularly, give it a shot man. If nothing else has worked for you.. enjoy