I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disease about 4 years ago. I have tried numerous meds, and continue to take them. I have switched numerous times and adjusted doses numerous times. They work for a little while then its like they do no good. I recently have been doing research on using cannabis. I used to smoke when I was a teenager but stopped when I had kids. I recently gave in and smoked a bong(home made). It was the best I felt in many years and got a very good nights sleep. Problem is that 1. I have teenage kids and don't want them taking away if I get caught. 2. Am afraid if I get drug tested at work I will loose my job (they actually test there) and 3. Don't want people looking down at me like I some drug addict(If I happen to get caught. I live in a very nosy place (like Mayberry). Just wanted to see if anybody was in a similar situation and could give some advice. Thanks in advance.