everyday i walk around in my own interpretation of this world. my perspective is constantly changing. right now i am lost in the spiral. each shift in perspective causes me to lose track of the last road i traveled down. i am tired of losing my momentum and having to redirect my efforts. idk if anyone will relate to how i feel.... i need to open my eyes to every truth, and realize every perspective simultaneously, because my mind has a craving for unification. i am me, but my third eye is in a fog.
your just spiritiauly confused and your trying to focus on it to much, just live life and you will find what life truly meens to you. its one of thouse, dont look for it, it will find you things. i found to me that new age christianity is my way.
Stop walking and take a taxi. Tell the driver where you want to go, and just relax... you'll be there soon.
Stop it or you could at least try. [ame=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0pS_wPeDxDQ]YouTube - Forget about 'Enlightenment' - Satsang with Mooji[/ame]
When you stop running towards the things that make you happy and away from the things that cause suffering, you will have found the path.
niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiceee Anyway, this sums up perfectly my experience with what you're going through OP
fuck me ...4:06-4:11 fucked me over. im blasted i almost threw up i got confused as shit i couldnt keep up but its interesting.
i agree with all of you... my problem has always been holding onto certain ideas for too long. i was ready to start relaxing when last semester ended, but i had a really long and difficult winter break and it kind of threw me off track i just feel like my life keeps throwing me curveballs. i have trouble keepin up with the shifts in my own personality. it seems like i change so rapidly that my mind loses track of what i was thinking even 20 minutes previous to my new 'enlightenment' ...maybe im just a skitzo haha
I can hugely relate to that feeling. Knowing there is something big out there that you have just started to stumble upon. Constantly in a state of thirsting for more knowledge, wanting to see this new truth from every angle possible, and not in its fragmented state. For me being able to start seeing things as a whole, with all the knowledge interconnected it just honestly took time. Information had a way of revealing itself to me without me having to look for it. And although at the beginning it all seemed to be related in a way that I just couldn't see yet, (like small parts of a puzzle with no starting picture for frame of reference) everything falls into place eventually revealing what you have been searching for. I feel like this type of knowing has to come in steps, because if my world had just been turned completely upside down the way it has in a short period of time I really dont think i would have seen it as beneficial or been able to handle or fully grasp all that was being offered to me. Not sure if any of this is going to make sense, or if its at all what you are talking about lol, but what you said just strongly resonates with how I felt when starting on what I feel is my journey for spiritual development and enlightenment. Good luck to you!!
I know how you feel. I'm assuming your pretty young, and you have to remember that most people don't know exactly where they stand or what beliefs they subscribe to, it all comes with growing up. Just take things as they come, and learn something from each train of thought. Appreciate that your mind is open enough to take you to all these different places - some people will never question what they've grown up with. There's no rush to figure out what you believe in right now. Hell, every day I find another issue that I thought I had a firm stance on, but when more information comes to light I become unsteady and am not sure which side to take. Sometimes it's frustrating, and sometimes I hate that I can't say "this is me, this is what I believe", because a lot of the time, I don't even know. Questioning yourself and the things going on around you is part of the journey to (wherever you're going). Just remember that not everything needs to be inspected and thought about, sometimes it's better to just sit back and enjoy the fact that you're here, even if you don't know why
Do you mean start running towards the things that make you happy? Because that just does not make sense to me.
I can't speak for him, obviously, but my understanding is something like: Peace and joy is now, or never. It's not a chase...you already have it, because *it* is just what's happening. So love what's happening, right now with your entire being Do you see? If you are seeking more, how will you know when you get it? How do you recognize more? What's it look like? How do you know when to stop and you've found 'more' ? You'll trap yourself into something that will never be satisfied, and thats a mental trap if you choose to adopt that way of thinking of 'wanting more' or 'wanting less' of; Just experience. You don't have to do anything at all...you're already here, and this is it. Not what your mind wanted? Pay no attention to it Welcome the unpleasant with the pleasant equally and you'll find yourself in a constant state of contentment.
Yeah, 'run towards neither' is what I took. I sometimes get reminded of the Beef lyrics: "I've had this trouble way before/the needle's gonna lose the groove again." My perspective seems to broaden and contract. I'm going to take a break from reefing. Get my mind right if you know what I mean.