My morning walking to work

Mondays and Wednesdays this semester I have to wake up at 8am to be at work by 9am. Today was no different, but I woke up at 750am, and was really awake, not just that groggy sorta awake. I do my morning stuff and then took my RooR out for a quick cleaning and packed maybe .15g's into my slide. Gofuzzyourself and I had been doing this last night, got us super baked after 3 or 4 bowls each. I ripped the whole bowl and milked my RooR up something yellow. Feeling like I shouldn't let Fuzz miss this opportunity (while I had 40min before work) to get baked, I woke her up and we smoked 4 bowls each, so we're both wicked fucked up at like 830am. Before I left to go to work, I had Fuzz feel my face because I thought it felt weird and I could still feel her hand for a good 30sec after she took it away (so I know im really really fucked up).

I put my visine in and get my stuff together to go to work. My weather alert on Trillian tells me it feels like its -6 degrees out, so I end up wearing my sweatshirt and winter jacket, ski hat, sunglasses, gloves, timbuk2 bag and my iPod.

Once I hit the street, I felt completely different. Like, the world around me was foreign or something. I felt like with all this stuff on, I was in this space suit thing and that I wasn't really walking. I just felt like I was all closed up in this suit and moving on auto pilot to work because id done the walk so many times. The music made it so I couldn't hear anything in the outside world, kind of like if you were driving in a car with the music up really loud, but the car surrounding was replaced by my clothes. The coolest part was the way my sunglasses made me feel like I was sort of driving because they made it seem as though there was a windshield in front of me.

As im walking and realizing all of these things, I had another realization. The realization that I knew I felt all these feelings and that I knew the high was making me feel that way, but that realizing that the high was making me feel that way wasn't bringing the feeling down at all. OK. That's a lot to handle. I know. It took me a while to figure it out while I was walking. <st1 ="">Ill</st1> try to explain. I knew that I was high, and I knew that the feelings that I was experiencing were because I was high. However, realizing that the high was causing these feelings didn't make the feelings fade or go away. I just had the pleasant time of being able to fully enjoy this awesome high and the way its making me experience the world.

During this realization, I had yet another realization. I didn't really want to go to class today, and it's close to the end of the semester, but finals aren't due til next monday/tuesday, so these classes aren't really to important, just reviews and stuff. I decided that I wasn't going to go because this realization was the one of most brilliant things I had thought of during my 3 years ive been at college, so that's enough for one day.

Then something else occurred to me. This is what people have been wanting from me for a long time. When I lived in the dorms, people I smoked with there would always expect me to have something profound or intellectual to say because I was the most experienced stoner of the group. It never really happened. Until now, while im alone walking to work at 845am on a Wednesday and it feels like im on Hoth without a Tauntaun. Actually, now that I think about it, Im sure I felt a lot like people would on Hoth, bundled up with eye coverage, but no real mouth/chin/nose cover.
(tauntaun for reference, if you didn't know what it looked like)

Im almost at work by that point, still completely in my own stoned reality and I had to take my gloves off to get into my iPod holder to see what time it was. Even with the gloves off, I still didn't really feel like I was back in normal reality, still in the space suit thing. Opening the computer labs and getting food at the vending machines I still felt slightly removed, but was coming back to my general all day high feeling (calm, relaxed, happy). Finally by the time I took my iPod off, signed on to the computer and opened Firefox to get to the site and write this, I was set back into my everyday high.

So yea, good time, great high. these are the things that make me keep smoking.

 

i doubt i looked too bad, but it wouldnt matter anyway because I work by myself, helping people with computer questions. there really arent any from 9am-12pm other than how to use the print system. i watch movies and comment here on GC.

thanks for the +rep guys

 

it took me something like 45min to write, my thoughts were so disorganzied.

 

ill do pics after this blunt