[quote name='"NorCalPiff"']wait yo I'm so confused. what is going on, what happened?[/quote] I'm pretty sure he wants to remake the Dutch Santa into an American Santa but keep the black guys. And then he wants to shoot a porno with Santa banging the black dudes and sell it and use the profits of the film to give to charity. True Story.
Have you ever thought about getting a psychological evaluation? It seems like you are very delusional. You are not santa and whether you like it or not "santa economics" and "santa porn" are not good ways to get charity money and promote santa. You seem to have a very good work ethic which could be used to do productive stuff. I think you need to let go of all your santa ideas because there never going to get you anywhere.
[quote name='"sandaclaus"'] And you are speaking familiar with seizures? You know for a fact that the people who I am angry at are all doing their jobs correctly, and how dare I think otherwise? I am not allowed to be angry with how I have been treated? Why the fuck would I ever apologize to that person? She told me when I was sick and having seizures, I would have been offended if I was helped by Santa...Do you know how offensive this was for me? So, to all those sick kids that are suffering from seizures, and this illness is no fucking joke...to all the people that have begged to be put of their misery due to this illness... I am sorry my views on the assholes that run the EFA don't reflect your similiar views. I am sure you have had a postive experience with them...Not me ( I remember walking into on office in Manhattan seven years ago...I was bloody due ot a seizure and had just been fired due to my seizures...I was scared, and this lady "shooed" me out of the office...I remember looking up at the tall buildings and hoping I had the guys to just jump...I didn't...I wound up on GC. After Aruba, I tried seperating my advocacy work for Epilepsy with my work with Santa...These two things do not belong, and i understand it...But I guess my loyalty will always be to my illness, which is why I am so concerned with the EFA...You know, it would make it so much easier if I wasn't sick...Oh well...[/quote] She didn't treat you badly. You're delusional if you think thats what she said. I READ her letter to you. That isn't at ALL what she said. You are absolutely insane if you think her email was offensive to anyone whatsoever. Her email was professional. Yours was terrifying.
And I don't get how you don't think that's "an honest way" to be honest. I've read your threads and yes I posted once in a "trying to be funny" but basically derogatory way and I apologize for that. I have no personal experience with your disease, but I would strongly and let me say that again strongly suggest that you read every single one of dirtydingusus's replies to you in every thread. It seems to me that not only does he have a personal understanding of what you are going through but he is honestly trying to help you. You keep asking for help and he keeps trying to give it to you but because he says things you don't want to hear, or for whatever reason, it seems you are ignoring his advice. Please stop doing that. Just because the help you are hearing (reading) doesn't seem to jibe with what you in your head are trying to accomplish, doesn't mean it isn't the best advice you are receiving and you should at least consider the fact that the help you need is going to take you in a direction you are not thrilled about going in. That's my two cents on the matter. I wish you the best.
So, basically gimme in a nutshell if you can i read the thread but im not following completely, all wrong doings/offensiveness aside...your mission is to help donate to and or start an Epilepsy Foundation using charity money or a Santa Foundation that helps with Epilipsy? Are you the controller of what money goes where or are you the one whom donations are made to? just trying to get the idea to the fullest, cant find other thread so its easier to ask. link maybe?
So are your posts to this website, deal with them and solve it. Grasscity isn't the place for this. CLOWN
Wow man. You are unbelievable. I hope for your sake that e-mail really did not go through. Even after everything, you still made veiled threats. You have got to stop focusing your frustration on those people just because they want their charity work to go a different direction than your charity work.
Okay, look man. I know you want to do a good thing. But you've got a problem. I think you are suffering from some pretty severe psychosis and/or paranoid delusions. I'm saying this, not to be mean, but as a impartial bystander with a perfectly healthy brain (by that I mean no disorders or mental diseases, unless you consider insomnia and mild night time anxiety). You really sound like there's something wrong with your head, more than just epilepsy. You know, the epilepsy might be part of it, or causing it, but there is seriously something wrong. Please, please please seek professional help. I know you want to do a great thing, but you can't help other people until you help yourself. You just can't; you're not in a mental or physical state to. It'd be like a man with a broken hip trying to run a marathon. These ideas you have, they seem aimless, quickly jumping around in topic. You have yet to indicate any real plan for your Santa Economics. In fact, I've had trouble comprehending even your explanation of the idea. You also seem very hostile to anyone who doesn't agree with you, or isn't automatically willing to help you, or a combination of both. Let me be clear, this is absolutely not normal behavior. So please get yourself some help. Once your brain is in better standing, this may just all fall into place for you.
Sanda, from my understanding of your posts it seems like you have an idea that you think is brilliant (Santa economics) but you expect other people to do all the work/provide all the sponsoring for it but you want all the credit. You keep saying you have tried to jump start this movement yet all you have to show for it are posts on grasscity. I understand you need more ideas, but you haven't really done anything yourself to promote your cause besides dressing up as Santa. You seem to think everyone should agree with your idea and do what they can to promote it, which is delusional. You need to commit more effort to your cause before you expect other people to follow along. Edit: and the emails aren't doing you any favors
Chris, if you want to learn about my work as SAnta, this is the wrong thread. This deals with a personal issue...I posted it because I do not want to represent myself in a way that is not correct...I am an epilepsy advocate, and my work few poeple know much about... While in Aruba, I had a few people call me the "real" santa...It allowed me to think if Santa was "real", what would he be doing...I discovered then that the image is being misused, and if used correctly, could generate billions of dollars for charity. At the time, I was proud of this, and believed I had inside information that could benefit society. Its the idea of taking a public image that has been around for 1500 years, and redefining it to fit the needs of society today. I did my very best, and worked on this theory under diress. I just noticed ways to bring in money, and it was exciting. I even came up with a few new "santa characters" that I believe fit with the premise of Santa, but would be charity based as well. Heck, one would could help bring in money for the endangered animals. Then, after a horrific incident in the hospital, I began to hate Santa, and the discovery I made. I felt sorry for myself, and couldn't understand it. I seperated myself from Santa ( I am glad I did) and began to understand my limitations. I can't be responsible for all that money...that is just insane. I never made money off of Santa, and only did it for the smiles. But I come from a back ground of being very sick...I know how desperate some people are to get healthy, and will try anything. In fact, this is my own attempt at getting healthy. Having a "real" Santa campaign designed to specifically help the epilepsy community would not work. We only represent 3% of the world's population, and right now there is a negative stigma attached to the illness. However, my plan was if I can just get a little Santa money to help the e-community, but let it be known it was an Epileptic brain that was behind such a campaign, it could produce a positive wave for the E community. At the very least, it might inspire other Epileptics, and that seems to be who I can relate to the most, although this is even dicey ( I am a 1%'er). I just want to help. I see the Santacons all over the world, and would like to make it better. For every beer a Santa that day buys, a portion will go to charity of the establishmen'ts choosing. I think now is a great time to introduce a healthier version of Santa, and this could help with childhood obesity, a Cause the White House is taking on. Fat Santa has only been around since 1867...Considering how old the myth is, giving Santa healthy make over should not be that hard, or cause that much of a problem. A healthy Santa will be charity based, and it could force companies to change how they use Santa, especially of the public backs this campaign ( I believe, if done correctly, they will)... Are my ideas winners? Not even close, and i understand that. I have no idea who needs this money more, and I don't want to get into that argument. I just know that by giving Santa back to the people, it could help out some. Right now, I think I have earned the right to eat, and be medicated. That is all I am hoping for by this Christmas.
I was tortured in a mental hospital because I discovered a way to help people using the image of Santa...YOU DAMN RIGHT THIS IS A SOB STORY. LOL!! Shit man, is that all you can say?
sandaclaus: I had posted a brief but important question yesterday which you apparrently missed in the scroll. Thank you for posting and for sharing with us your letter to the EF. I realize that to write and send such an articulate letter, you must have had some important purpose in mind. I just wanted to know what you think the EF will do in response to your letter.
Thinker, I think I did see that this morning...Sorry I didn't respond. Well, after the first letter they pressed charges. Apparently, it did not warrent enough to get an order of protection, so to be honest, I should be good there. I pissed them off, and that is never a good thing when you are sick and don't have a pot to piss in. And when I say sick, I don't mean to ask for sympathy. I just know what they can do to people like me, and it scares me. The second letter never went through, although I am sure by now it doesn't matter. ITs easy to find me here, so I wouldn't be suprised if they check me out. Thinker, I cared so much about this illness, and was prepared to die if it would helped ( a mindset I don't recommend for everyone)...Things have changed, but at the same time, it just boggles me mind they are doing the bare minimum...Yeah, I am a dick, but its that fighting spirit that kept me alive, so I am not going to apologize for it. However, my point has been that they are professionals, and if they just took the time to find out what happened to me in these last couple of years, it should have made sense why I was angry...If there was a miscommunication, it should have been dealt with right then and there. ITs why I begged for him to speak with me... but again, they can't do shit to me this month...afterwards, i have no idea...