well, 2 nights ago after shooting up 2 bags and puking 2 times, i took my dog out and when i came back in the house i did something i've never done, i sat down and talked to my pap, who is fairly old and kinda senile, because he woke me up when i nodded off to take the dog out and was complaining about my dad along with how nobody listens to him.. so he started talking about my dad and he told me someone told him that my dad doesnt want to work, and hwo my dad wants to go on welfare, he wouldnt tell me who told him to prevent controversy, but i kind of new this from the start. see my dad has bad shoulders and is a hair stylist, so it fucks his arms up to hold em up to cut hair. well me and my pap got started on this conversation because my dad came home early from work to play pool, although he claims work was just slow. the only things my dad really does is get groceries, take care of the bills (all of this with my paps money), watch tv and play pool, he works about a day a week, n i'm gonna assume he makes 10 dollars an hour, he usually works about 6 hours, plus tips, so i'm gonna say thats around 150 every 2 weeks for a pay. i've tried pissin him off into getting another job that he can actually perform, but he aint havin it, hes tryin to get disability, but i know for sure thats gonna backfire in his face because he isnt disabled from all jobs, just from his current one, he can work a cashregister for 6-7 dollars an hour 40 hours a week, and make 240 dollars a week before taxes, hell, sheets starts you out at 7.50 an hour for workin a cash register, thats how much i fuckin make doin labor. but instead what my dad does is basically blackmail my pap into keeping his checkbook, cuz if my pap were to ask for it back my dad would respond with "fine then you can go get the groceries yourself" or something similar, when in reality my fuckin pap basically provides a home for my dad and me. there was alot more said, but i wont go into it. this little discussion between me and my pap revealed even more how badly my dad treats my pap, when he gives him somewhere to live. i told my pap "you need to just kick him the fuck out of the house and force him to get a job and help pay if he wants to live here" and i also told him to take his checkbook back and that i'll go buy groceries for the house, but i'm not home the majority of the day so if anything were to happen to him he would be fucked. also, if and when i finally get to move out of here my pap told me "you better not messup because the only reason i'm allowing this to go on is to give you a comfortable place to live, as soon as you move out i'm selling the house and your dad's gonna be on his own, so you arent gonna have anywhere to come back to if you screwup" which places one hell of a burden on me, because my pap is 89 years old, he could die any fuckin day in reality, and thats gonna totally fuck me so i'm in a hurry to get out on my own before i get sucked down with my dad havin to pay his bills n shit since he cant afford his own living. but at the same time i really dont have what i would consider enough backup money saved up as of yet to feel comfortable living on my own incase any kind of emergency happened so, in retrospect this jus makes me feel an even stronger hatred for my father because he always acts like he's payin for shit for me out of his own pocket and gets all pissed off, when he isnt paying a fucking dime, and instead of trying to better himself like i've been he's just accepting a lower quality of life, and if i dont get out of here soon i'll get sucked right into that lower quality, because if my pap were to die i aint got nowhere to go except with him to a shithole, and to help pay bills n shit, which in turn will never allow me with enough money to live anything near comfortably and start my own life and to boot, i think my canada connection has fucked up to boot, i sent 1300 dollars up there, and the tracking hasnt been updated since october 3rd and i shipped it september 29th, priority mail, which takes 4-6 days, usually it tells me "been received by *canadian post office*" but its been at "en route to canada" which is makin me think that customs intercepted my shit, or is holding it, although i dont know why this would happen, cuz its a priority envelope, with a security envelope, and 1300 dollars in 100 dollar bills wrapped in paper inside of that, with no inquiry for anything in it, just cash in an envelope if this fucks up, i'll be dead within about 3 weeks, not cuz of depression or anything, but i'll have just been fucked over 1 too many times, and see no real reason to be alive, i'm pretty much alone in the world, and i see no hope for a better future the way i think things are going to go, who knows, there could be a glitch in the system, or it could be taking longer because i didnt fill out a customs tag, this was the case the first time i shipped money up there, it took roughly 8 days to get there, as of now i'm on day number 6 (due to no mail on sunday) so i'ma give it til next friday to see what goes down. fuck man, y's shit gotta be good for like a month and then go right back down shit creek.
wow. that sucks. so your pap, is your granddad? and if he dies, does he by chance have any life insurance policy of any kind? That sux about your money. Sounds like you were taking a pretty big risk, neg, sending 1300 cash to canada, and what he sends u like a half pound or something? I hope this works out for you... my dad is the complete opposite. He is a workaholic.
yup, my pap is my grandfather, and i'm sure he got life insurance but it probably goes to my dad, who will be greedy with it and still make me help pay bills because "it wont last forever" and yea, half pound for 1300, and it is a big risk but i'd rather take big risks than nothing at all and just accept this shit.
Well, to try to take a little stress off you...I've never seen a package go across our border in under 2 weeks. And I've had cigars shipped to me from the US quite a few times (they're way cheaper for you guys, like a quarter of the cost) Just try to keep going man, if you can see in your dad the lack of desire to better himself use that as motivation to make sure you better your life whenever you can. At one point, my father had two of us kids living with him in a one bedroom shithole. He was on disability from work for chemo/radiation and we were dirt poor. He broke rules and did some side jobs(he's a painter) while he was still off work for recovery, he nearly crippled himself just so we could buy groceries. I worked two jobs in high school just so I could afford gas for my car to go to work, and to give him every penny I could spare. What I'm trying to say is that if you have the desire, the need to keep on going you will find a way. Not 3 years later, we have our own place where we rent out the basement for extra cash...I can afford to buy clothes again. We eat well, not just what we can afford. You just have to tell yourself that no matter how bad it gets, you are not giving up. This is the only life you're going to fucking get so don't let anyone elses bullshit drag you down with them. Stay strong man, take care of your grandfather and yourself first. If your dad decides he wants to be a fuckup forever then let him. After a certain point you have to differentiate your life from that of your parents. The only way to get outta shit creek is to never stop paddling.
You can make bank for awhile probably doing that, if you're money keeps going through, but idk, if it's not now, I would expect u might have some issues in the future. With Customs. postal service. Your connect could take the money, that's an easy 1300. So much shit could go wrong...Ur taking a lot of risk there.
well, everytime i've sent money its gotten to him within 7 days so far, and when he ships my shit back it only takes 5, and i've been using my dad as motivation for as long as i can remember thinking "i never want to grow up to be like him, broke and alone with no family connection"
FUCK YEA!!!!!!!!!!111 "International shipment has arrived in Canada" DATS WATSUP! god damn, i was all stressin n shit for nothin, had to be cuz i didnt fill out the customs form, ok, hope has been restored
^^ chea! haha but he aint even got my cheddar cheese yet, he's been real wordup about it though as of yet, really quick about it n shit