I am losing my hair at 19 due to male pattern baldness. My hair has always been dark, and it is turning a brighter shade. Even my facial hair. I have had allergies my whole life, leading to nose congestion and the inability to sleep right. My jaw is missing three teeth, since I was born missing those permanent teeth. My body is scarred by stretch marks from growing, weight gain, weight loss. My skin is scarred from self injury from razor blades. I am always inexplicably tired and fatigued during the day. My mind has been tormented by abuse from my family, my older siblings, who always called me fat, stupid, worthless, and I was naive enough in my younger ages to believe. I have had anxiety disorder due to this. Nearly all of my teachers in high school hated me due to my laziness, truancy, poor manners and reluctance to speak. Everyone in high school and now college believe that I am a foreigner, an alien in this world. I am growing tired of my burdens, my health, my past.
Eating disorders aren't something to fuck with, I'm not joking. I'm assuming since you once were fat and now you're not that you have one. Get help for it otherwise you will die. And all of the time up to.your death will be miserable and terrible. This isn't a joke. Deal with the other stuff later, the eating disorder will help the fatigue and other symptoms.
Don't think theres much I can say..other than, it gets better. Have you looked into a therapist on your college campus, many times you can walk in and get some great advice, or just vent. Nothing to be ashamed about either, my dad was a cheater and walked out on my mom for years, had a new gal every couple of months...then would find his next mistress. I built up a barrier to women, for the longest time I couldn't be in a relationship and I moved on to tons of women...it wasn't me. Talking helped, now I'm in a stable relationship and it's been that way for 4 yrs almost. And I smoke weed on the reg....c it gets pretty awesome...btw I'm also developing a widows peak at 23 it's almost looking like Timothy Olyphants...wear my scars like a badge of armor man, and I got a lot of them!
Damn dude. Thank god there is cannabis you can smoke to ease your pain. Shitty life man. The underdog always wins, remember that.
That's not actually massively terrible. I started losing mine at 15. The other stuff, is admittedly shitty, especially the family abuse. But there's no reason to let that dictate your life. Do what you want, fuck everything else.
Whats up man, my advice is to get your thyroid checked out. When mine was real low it fucked up my whole body and mind.
hey man its a tough world out there, everyone has there pains from the past, i sure do, shit i been through alot through my life also, ive been through things that i thought i would never overcome, but you got to be tougher for your self, because no one is going to stand up for your self besides your self... you got to have some pride in your self, everyone is human, nothing more then that, you got to make changes to your life bro and the only person that can do that is you Do things that make you happy bro and believe in your self
Mikey has the right idea- you should see a doctor! There are a lot of physical conditions that can mess up your mind. You need to look at your diet. A lack of Omega 3 (fish oil, flax seed oil) can cause depression, and the average American diet has almost no Omega 3! Deficiency of Dietary Omega-3 May Explain Depressive Behaviors (news - 2011) Deficiency of Dietary Omega-3 May Explain Depressive Behaviors. - Free Online Library High omega-6 and low omega-3 fatty acids are associated with depressive symptoms and neuroticism. High omega-6 and low omega-3 fatty acids are a... [Psychosom Med. 2007] - PubMed - NCBI [FONT="]O-6 vs. O-3 ratio[/FONT] [FONT="]http://www.thefreelibrary.com/Omega-6+to+Omega-3+Ratio+-+Discover+the+Shocking+Reality+That+Ruins...-a01073970178[/FONT] [FONT="][/FONT][FONT="][/FONT] Good Oils and Fatty Substances http://www.math.ucsd.edu/~ebender/Health%20&%20Nutrition/Nutrition/oil_good.html How Long Before Fish Oil Works on Depression to Lift Your Mood? How Long Before Fish Oil Works on Depression to Lift Your Mood? Omega-3 Fatty Acids and Mood Disorders PsychiatryOnline | American Journal of Psychiatry | Omega-3 Fatty Acids and Mood Disorders And male pattern baldness means you have a normal amount of testosterone in your system. Eunuchs go bald about as often as women do! To go bald, you need the right genes plus male hormones. So "certain important parts of your body" are working just fine when it comes to testosterone! There are creams that are supposed to lessen the appearance of scars and stretch marks. Don't know how well they work, but they might be worth a try. Now about the school problems. I work at a school.Your attitude (bad manners) and truancy caused a lot of your troubles. The school year is just starting- you have a clean slate. Take advantage of this! Get your act together, hon! Start going to school and get the work done! You ARE a worthwhile person. You know this in your heart- which is why all this shit bothers you so much! I can understand where you are coming from, hon. My Mom was a bipolar, suicidal, pill-popping alcoholic. Dad was on submarines and gone half the time before their divorce. I was bullied at school. My childhood was "interesting". I was told over and over how I wasn't good enough. I was too fat. I wasn't living up to my potential... You know the drill as well as I do. I just want to say that you can survive this and become who you are supposed to be! It is possible to let go of the pain, and then you can begin to grow. (((HUGS))) Granny
lol cute: "average american diet" ahahaha lets see what searching the term "american diet" on images leades: to the op: no one can help you until you agree and want to help your self, if you a gc account and are online then you have the internet which equals to unlimited access to information, if this was 20 years ago, i can understand , but now at this day and age, no excuses, if you have a poor body image then you have to admit to your self that its up to you to man up and do something about it. harsh words but needed to be said
Beimg bald isnt so bad. Lots of men go bald and its nothing to be ashamed of. As for your other problems. You need to open up to some people you can trust. Posting this thread has already gotten you some great advice
For me it is a see-saw. I am trying to improve my confidence, my looks. I want to believe that things will get better. But I am also afraid. So many things in my life have gone the wrong way. What if this is just the way my life is? What if it is my fate to live a horrible life? What if things are only going to get worse?
i can only think of one response to this [ame=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0XoyDqFy5pU]so what- Metallica - YouTube[/ame] you can dwell and dwell or you can move the fuck on and try your best to become the best you can become
If you believe that then you probably wont make too much progress. Instead, try believing things can and will get better. Focus on all of the good qualities that you already have and just try to enjoy each moment by itself. Things will get better if you put in the effort.