I have been feeling kinda depressed lately, but mostly just confused, i guess, not quite sure how to explain how i feel, but any way the reason for my depression/confusion (of course it has to do with my health ): So about 2 weeks ago i had to go to the doctor for blood in my stool, turned out to just be associated with constipation(whew), but while i was there my wife wanted me to get something else checked, she had noticed that my left testicle was larger than normal and wanted it checked. Well the doctor checked out my testicles and the left was enlarged, which in and of itself isn't necessarily "bad", most likely some fluid build up, but she also found "lumps" on both my testicles, now it could be nothing, but chances are that it could be real bad, i'm talking like "cancer bad, i wont know for sure until i go to the specialist on tuesday, but i am kinda freaking out here. My mind can seem to only focus on the possible negative aspects of this, I am so worried for my wife and children, if it happens to be bad. Well all i can do for now is hope for the best and try to stay positive. Thanks for reading my little rant
Well all you can do is keep a positive mind and be open to any outcome. Last thing you want to do is get all happy about being fine when it comes out to be something bad you'll be so let down. Hope I helped in any way, bummer bro.
Don't worry bro. Blood in your shit can be really bad too, but it's just constipation. I don't blame you for being worried. If anyone freaks out over the smallest symptoms, its me. Forget about it, its nothing. And once you realize that, you're gonna regret wasting your time being worried.
I'm sending some positive vibes your way. I know it's hard, but try to relax and save your energy for when you actually find out for sure what is going on, rather than getting too worked up right now. And if worse comes to worse, you have access to a wonderful, potent medicine that will be beneficial to you during your time of poor health. Many people don't discover cannabis until they are well and truly sick and have suffered through a lot of less effective commercial drugs, but you have advanced knowledge. Hang in there.
Very true, and i am trying to for the most part, i know i have no say in the outcome and will have to deal with whatever it may be, i am hoping all will be well, but if not i am prepared (as much as i can be) to deal with that as well, just needed to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading