Me and my fiance broke up after 2 years yesterday. She wanted to stay friends but that's like telling a kid he can keep his dog after its dead. I called her this morning to see how she was doing and she seemed happy as can be, and a little angry. I know its better to let her go, maybe she'll come back. I want to let her go but its hurts so much, and I know she's happier without me. I texted her saying that if she ever wanted to get back together my door would always be open and my phone would always be on, and that ill always love her. I thanked her for all the sweet memories and all the good times, and told her even if she decided she wants it to be over for good then ill still respect her and ill be happy and contempt just knowing she's happy and all the memories I have of us. But that doesn't stop it from hurting. All the pics of her I have and all the things that remind me of her, they hurt worse and worse every time. I even had to switch cigarettes because we smoked the same brand and it was upsetting to look at them. And I'm watching movies to distract myself and I keep seeing love scenes and it hurts me to watch, they also make me extremely angry and jealous. I've never been a jealous guy, but the thought of the love of my life with another man makes me want to yell as loud as I can and empty a clip into something. I don't know why I'm posting this, I just needed to vent, maybe someone has advice or something. I miss her so much. I'm a grown ass man and I feel like crying.