What happens when we die Should I embrace amorality and descend into a self-gratifying binge? What if everything I love slips away? Are psychedelics (Shhhh spoilers!) the deepest window into our consciousness? Fuck short term memory loss... why, oh God, did you curse us with apathy? And other stuff I'm really high I found forgotten hash and oh god is it good! My shoulder muscles and joints have gone numb and my arms are way down there Goodbye.
Oops I forgot Christmas. I guess the holidays give me the blues due to the fact that after them, I feel profoundly alone and depressed for about three months afterward. It isn't SAD, I love the winters, I think I just need to be radically re connect to my extended family. Proximity does not help.