Hey grasscity, I don't post on here alot but I lurk and i know this is a cool site and whatever. So i thought i could post this here. I have very low confidence and I'm very shy. I don't like talking, talking to new people or socalizing very much. I feel like I've turned my back to the world basically and I regret it everyday but I don't know how to change it, im very socially awkward and its hard for me to talk to people. Just some background on my life: I played sports throughout highschool, I was a really big strong kid (worked out alot), i stopped talking to my dad when i was 15 or so because he couldn't take my awkwardness and my constant isolation from my family. I used to smoke alot of weed mostly bymyself then i dabled into pills and i really liked them but i dont use them very often because i know they're addictive. Now i rarely smoke or do any type of drugs. I only had 1 girlfriend which was in middleschool, and I rarly ever speak to girls anymore. If you have any comments or any advice/questions that would be appreciated thanks.