Lung surgery spontaneous pneumothorax

Well almost 2 months ago my lung popped (spontaneous pneumothorax) I was a heavy smoker weed and Fags seen so many post about being tall and skinny this dosnt just happen to those people I am not tall atall and skinny is something am not but I can't say am fat either my popped so bad my full lung had collapsed I was rushed for surgery and had part of my lung removed how I see people Evan thinking about smoking again is beyond me it so hard with the temptations around but seriouslt come on do you really think this happens for nothing drug abuse is a big cause to this crap happening I woke up with mine am a mum of 2 I didn't over do anything in the days leading up to my lung for it to collapse as bad as it did I was lucky to be alive as the hospital stated numours of times as my heart was being crushed by the air in my chest his has truly put me of touching any sort of weed cigs the lot am scared to be around my partner who still smokes both weed and cigs coz am scared the second hand smoke it's gunna pop my lung again the pain from surgery that av seen someone post its so painful bullshit its as painfully as the lung collapsing if anything a lot more controllable the thing that hurts the most is that god damb chest drain am 26 years old also and I can say this had been the worst experience of my life I would love to smoke again but I never will after this doctors also told me if I smoke or not it won't stop me from getting another it dosnt reduce my risk or higher my risk if it's going to happen it will nothing I do or don't do will stop this frm reacurring so if ur doctor has told u different there lieying sorry but they are I have been advised of the specialist the info I just shared as I begged to know of smoking has done this and they say no but I think other wise