Maybe its cause its late and thats why I'm thinking about all this deep shit. Love, what does it feel like? I feel like,I misinterpet want for love. I get thos feeling in my chest with EVERY girl I like. Its an anxious feeling. Then I back off. IT SCARES THE HELL OUT OF ME. It scares me even more to share this info with the girl. I dont want to end up a chump. One of those guys who 'fall in love' but lil do they kno, lil miss sally is suckin off the whole football squad and the coach. But it seems my inaction causes said girls to move on which gives me my most relatable emotion: pain. Pain had been my partner in life. Its kept me disciplined and humble yet I feel its causing me to be cold and distant. Im great at faking emotions and faking a good time, but the main emotion I feel is pain. Not on no emo shit, pain is really physical with me. I get these pain episodes called crisis all througout my body. Its a long story, but when the pain fades is when I ferl the most human. Anyway, what is love? How does it feel? How can I express my emotions but not in a chumpish disney pg13 movie way? Why am I even writing this?