Feel like i need to vent this for closure maybe. Around 1year ago my best friend past away unexpectedly and it hurt me to the point that i was a mess. I didnt talk to her at all about it and kept it inside. I had been with her for 2 years and loved her more then anything. I messed up and made some mistakes when i was drunk and couldnt even explain how sorry i was. She took me back and everything was fine. I also was on a very heavy amount of anti depressions. So back to the story, i was messed up. Started to get feelings for another girl and told her i needed time to see what i wanted for myself. She actually did this to me a year b4. I ended up dateing this girl for 3 weeks and realized it was a huge mistake. I tried to get her back with everything i had but she wouldnt take me back...Now everyday every night i think about her, dream about her...Dream about her taking me back and wake up in disappointment. Im crying writing this. Its been like 8 months since i even talked to her. I think about her everyday and cant get her out of my head. Shes moved on and doesnt care, doesnt txt me or write me and i just dont know what to do. I havt been happy for one day. Ive met other girls and im actually dating one right now but i still feel this way and this girl im seeing now knows this. I cant get her out of my head. Its been almost a year since i even seen her. I cant even forgive myself. I miss her so much... I didnt call her everyday or anything i just left her alone and didnt want to be a crazy person. Im 21 yrs with tattoos and i just feel like crying b.c i cant stop thinking of this. What should i do. Good job, nice car. I dont understand.