Ok, the acid trip i mentioned in another thread, there was a part of it I'd like to discuss. When I was outside sitting on the curb I began to look at myself and examine ME instead of the world i was surrounded by. I started to question why I do what I do, and what i can do to fix problems of myself. I didn't come to many conclusions, just keep questioning shit about myself, and realizing, I know absolutely nothing. I mean i know my interests and such but i don't think i really "know me" if that makes sense. Has anyone else done this? What were some conclusions you have come to? What does this mean of ones conscience?
i find myself analyzing myself sometimes when im high and randomly and without realizing it... my conclusion is that im often hard on myself, always tryna one up myself, always tryna improve and upgrade what i already am... but everyone on the outside doesnt see this, even my family and my best friends and even the regular crowd, they see me as awesome, party hard, work hard, popular athlethic guy fucking girls lol... but to me there is always room for improvement... to work harder, lift harder, play harder...
I think we are supposed to be at peace with the fact that we know nothing. We are but a grain of sand on a beach beyond our comprehension.
Everybody's got their sub-personalities. Sounds like you're a perfectionist, but don't worry, I am too.
I never even say the word know anymore. I find "I don't know" to be a much more reasonable answer to most things. If you think about it, it's usually because there is some stupid, pointless and in-depth process (associated with something logical, typically, which is another illusory concept humans have created) associated to the idea that's being presented as far as whether you 'know' it or not. "Why don't you know math?" "I don't know." Why should you need to know, anyway? Math is irrelevant to what is.