Life Is Crazy

It all started when I was a kid. My mother and my father always fought, and I remember at a young age that I never wanted to get married because I thought that all married people did was fight and were never happy like my parents. So their fighting created a negative environment that shaped who I am today.
     Anyways, when I was around 10 years old, my 11 year old sister wanted a horse. So my parents bought her one from a guy named Arlin. Arlin was a middle aged country guy who lived in a 'hick' part of the city I'm from. Arlin taught my sister a lot about horses, and at the time he taught me things also. The one thing that was off about Arlin was the fact that he was kicked out of being the scoutmaster of a boy scout pack for unknown reasons (to us at least).
     One day when I was at Arlin's land he was teaching me about horses. He tells me to touch the horse's private parts, and when I don't, he takes my hand at does it for me. I felt weird about that, but at the time I thought it was normal or something.
     My sister was also learning from Arlin, probably more than me because it was her horse, I was just there to fuck around as a kid I guess. So anyways, he takes her on an overnight horse camping trip with a local group of horse riders, and he gets kicked out of the club because he was seen 'tackling <sister name>' in a suggesting manner.
     My sister was always a bitch to me and my mom after that. I don't know why, but she had to take her anger out on me and my mom. As a result, I went from being the happy, funny, go-lucky kid at school to the quiet, lame kid who got picked on. This bullying carried on into highschool, until my senior year. I never had any real friends during middle or high school, and I never even had a girlfriend even though I could have easily. Looking back, I just had really terrible self esteem and I was unhappy in life.
     My mom took us to counseling, but my dad and sister never went. It was mainly just me talking to the counselor about why I'm unhappy and a social deject, which I lied about and was ashamed at that point in my life.
     I was never able to talk to my mom or dad about my social life or life at all after that. I became shut in from other people. I had no one to talk to about things in my life and I became mistrusting of people, almost angry at their existence.
    So fast forward through my unhappy high school years to the end of my senior year and high school. I get a full time job right out of high school getting payed 35 an hour, full time work. I made bank doing physical labor getting prevailing wage and bought myself a car and put about 4k in the bank. All is well until I get laid off at the job, and have nothing again. No friends, nobody to talk to, so I started acting out to get kicked out on purpose, by smoking pot. Smoking pot was the only escape I had from the town I grew up in for 18 years and felt trapped there, like my history followed me.
     So I did the only thing I could think of, I left. I packed some essentials into my car and left 1 month ago at 18. I am now living in a college town, in a house with roommates. Life is so much better for me here. Their are hot girls my age everywhere, I feel like I get a fresh start, and I have no parents to fuck around with my emotions. I also brought a 1/2 lb of some fire from my hometown that is better than any other bud in this town, and I sell it at the best price. Aside from getting arrested, I have a part time job here and I also sell bud and edibles on the side.
     Ever since I left, I have felt much better about my life and that I made the right descision to leave my negative enviorment. I go to the gym regularly, I feel good and am much more outgoing than I ever was at my old town.
     Well I just wanted to share the story of my life, so I hope you enjoyed. Thanks for listening
    
 

 

Prevailing wage (work on government buildings) is 34.81/hr where I live. We removed 50,000 sq ft of roof on a school over the period of 1.5 months