Two posts in and you've got a suicide thread If you wanted help you'd be on the Suicide Prevention website or something These types of cries for attention are middle school material...find someone who can help you
please don't feel that way. if you want someone to talk to feel free to hit me up, or post your problems here and maybe someone can help you chill out you know? but suicidal thoughts are shit man, try your best to think positive.
If things are that bad, seek professional help. Coming on to a board of complete strangers isn't going to help. We are not equipped to help you anywhere close to a professional could help you, so call a suicide hotline, talk to a family member or friend, a minister, somebody that knows you in real life and can help you talk your way through this temporary situation of yours.