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Discussion in 'Real Life Stories' started by Mangoskunk, Apr 19, 2012.

  1. For the next 30 or so days I'm going to update everyday on my struggle to finally beat depression. I have been severely depressed for as long as I can think back, and it's time to STOP. I have had enough over the years, and I'm sick of it. I decided I will try to beat it one last time.(I've tried many times, and failed miserably)

    I just recently quit the use of drugs (besides. Minimal cannabis use). And because of this I have gone through bad, depressing, and weakening withdrawals.(PLEASE DO NOT MENTION DRUGS WE CANNOT MENTION, I DONT WANT THIS TO BE DELETED). I think my head is much clearer after quiting, and I think I'm strong enough to beat this fuckin thing.

    If this seems stupid to you, please do not post.(I don't need any negative vibes) I'm using this as a tool to document my progress.
     
  2. Have you considered using the healing power of crystals and gems to battle your depression?

    Lithium quartz works well for depression...

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  3. I try not to involve myself in medications, I have an addictive personality.
     
  4. Good luck...I would suggest working out on a regular basis to help with stress and a healthy diet as well.
     
  5. Yeah, I was planning on making MAJOR changes in my diet and exercise.
     
  6. Thats great bro you will need but not limited to a gym membership(hanging next to chill people who exercise:) then surf the net for muscle building foods and follow this. Next you will need a time to wake up in the morning before sunrise, its scientifically proven that going to sleep early and waking up early is the right path for a healthy brain and body. umm oh and the depression sometimes is a vicious cycle of negativity playing in your head like a tape recorder. You can brake this cycle by not worrying about the past or future but being in the now. Do this by listening to constant sounds around you(this will take practice), using your sense of touch by feeling anything deeply. Looking at any object but not putting a label on anything,this is your mind purely and naturally just being in existence :) taste whatever you eat good or bad to the fullest of your ability. Try staying away from porn or anything that will taint your heart bro and your good i hope this helped a little.
     
  7. [quote name='"footballrb"']Thats great bro you will need but not limited to a gym membership(hanging next to chill people who exercise:) then surf the net for muscle building foods and follow this. Next you will need a time to wake up in the morning before sunrise, its scientifically proven that going to sleep early and waking up early is the right path for a healthy brain and body. umm oh and the depression sometimes is a vicious cycle of negativity playing in your head like a tape recorder. You can brake this cycle by not worrying about the past or future but being in the now. Do this by listening to constant sounds around you(this will take practice), using your sense of touch by feeling anything deeply. Looking at any object but not putting a label on anything,this is your mind purely and naturally just being in existence :) taste whatever you eat good or bad to the fullest of your ability. Try staying away from porn or anything that will taint your heart bro and your good i hope this helped a little.[/quote]

    Very helpful post, thanks. I've been reading up on exercise and other "depression fighting techniques" like taking cold showers, eating good foods. And I've also always wanted to meditate, so maybe I'll try that as well. About the gym membership, I don't think that'll happen. I'm low on cash and don't like people that much. So I'll work out with what I got.
     
  8. #8 KamelRedLight, Apr 20, 2012
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    Taking cold showers? That'll just make me pissed off. But no seriously, finding a gym buddy and starting to work out is one of the best things for you. Even when I don't realize I'm bummed out, after the gym I feel a million times better and realize I had been kinda down lately. And it sticks with you the longer you do it. It's part chemical, but also a self esteem thing. Having a goal and making small achievements over time and progressing to being a goddamn sexy beast. There's gotta be a Y near you, they're pretty cheap and they should have everything you need. That's where I go (went, the mountain is my gym now).

    Edit: I also wanted to commend you just on your resolve to get out of depression. If you can keep up that attitude, it'll be easier than you think. You don't need drugs or...no offense swichone...crystals. It's up to you, and you got this.
     
  9. [quote name='"KamelRedLight"']
    Taking cold showers? That'll just make me pissed off. But no seriously, finding a gym buddy and starting to work out is one of the best things for you. Even when I don't realize I'm bummed out, after the gym I feel a million times better and realize I had been kinda down lately. And it sticks with you the longer you do it. It's part chemical, but also a self esteem thing. Having a goal and making small achievements over time and progressing to being a goddamn sexy beast. There's gotta be a Y near you, they're pretty cheap and they should have everything you need. That's where I go (went, the mountain is my gym now).

    Edit: I also wanted to commend you just on your resolve to get out of depression. If you can keep up that attitude, it'll be easier than you think. You don't need drugs or...no offense swichone...crystals. It's up to you, and you got this.[/quote]

    Thanks man, I think I can do it. But I fear the bone crushing depression it will most likely fall back into. And I never thought about the Y, maybe I'll check it out. And cold showers are supposed to stimulate a "blue" area of your brain.
     
  10. Don't even think of it as a valid outcome. You obviously don't want to be depressed, you know it's not who you are or who you wanna be. It's a process, but you can do it. I'm gonna follow this cuz it'd please me to see someone pull themselves up like this. People too often give up on themselves and just accept it as who they are, when that's just absurd.
     
  11. Update #1:

    First day of trying to feel better and discover some new things about myself, and it was actually pretty good. I woke up feeling okay, compared to a week ago. Also since I quit other drugs, I am sort of losing my OCD symptoms. I'm not sure if I have it.(probably not, most likely drug induced). But it feels good not having to nervously check everything countless times. Also i'm going to start spending time with my sister and brother. I want to try as many things as I can to destroy this "wall" I've built around me.
     
  12. Tons of things just ask your doctor what works other then stupid ass pills.
     
  13. He/she would most likely tell me to exercise then. Waste o' cash, if you ask me.
     
  14. Update #2:

    Didn't get a wink of sleep last night, really not in the mood for all of this 420 bullshit at school today. I don't feel all too well, but maybe I'll feel better later in the day.

    I'll update again later (not that any of you give a fuck).
     
  15. 420 at school? They do that?!
     
  16. Ha no, but some douchebags spray painted "420" on some walls and threw baby powder everywhere. I wish people would just GROW THE FUCK UP.
     
  17. Update #3:

    I am starting to get into the positive mindset, but only just a little. I'm just starting to look at things almost in a new way, a sort of realization of what I need to do.
     

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