i pay attention to every detail about my appearance, so my mom says also . i was snapped at today by a viewer she was younger then me and smaller than me but weighed more, like yea okay well been there had to go through that and guess what,,, I''m happier now! and my looks i effortlessly do nearly now. i just needed a space to vent and diet along everyday to so i did a virtual accountability on youtube. this has helped me and ia m grown from it. i am now wanting to lose 2 lbs and i am called out for thats how eating disorders are but Good lord i have been eating disordered 13 years now it's taken the better half of my life practically. i can't be fully recovered and well thats the ride i line, i want to be like a model. i am not after an ordinary life, because that's not me, God has given me my trials nad this is how i;ve dealt. i love my appearance and everything i do.... is this wrong?