I've had her for some moments and the next day I feel like she wants nothing from me but friendship... and she has been thinkin' about other guys. It's hard to read her, but she's such a special person and I want to be with her so much, sex has never crossed my mind, call me a wierdo, I think that she could possibly think i'm like the majority of guys she's been with, the ones who want sex and sex, and more sex, but she is that special, and she's had a troubled past and I just want to be the wall between her and her past, and make her feel like the most special person in the world and come close to not even remembering any of it. I have even done this weird thing recently, I made my cell phone say Don't talk to her unless she talks to you for a week... just to see if she really wanted to even talk to me. I'm really troubled, and I don't know if I should just give up or what, but honestly she is such a beautiful person and I think I can make an impact on her life for the better, I may just be crazy. for a while I would text her for hours on end, and later I felt like I was coming off as desperate, when really I just liked her a lot. I'm hurting bad in the mind, she consumes my thoughts, she's giving me anxiety, I don't have any clown shrub (my new word for pot) and I feel like i'm going to explode. I just don't know what it is that is wrong with me to where she wouldn't want to be with me, sometimes she tells me nice stuff that makes me feel good, but the next morning it feels like it flew out the window. I also have been taking every oprotunity I can to spend time with her, even if its not long, even if I have to drive a long way to her house or something and have to put gas in my dad's tank, she knows I like her a lot, and maybe that's the problem... there's more but I think this is enough to show what I'm thinking and get a diagnosis... I still think she's got her mind set on someone else I know maybe, probably yes, I've talked to him about it before, and he's approached me about it as well, he said he wouldn't do it and that's that, but I guess she is like me, and I am like her.