Maan, wait until you're 24 going on 25. I wish I just turned 20, so many opportunities were squandered.
(Just wanted to thank everyone who replied to this thread. It brought me out of the dumps for real; I'm applying at a few jobs I've lined up today, hitting a new glass bong my friends bought me with some Cali dank, and got some money! Things are looking up.) Well, it's tomorrow! Actually I was 20 at 4 in the morning, but w/e, hahaha. I've been doing a lot of thinking and decided it's not worth letting other people bring me down, or have any expectations for people (there are exceptions).