*UPDATE* Well Blades, my over-reaction leads to nothing. I walk in to work today and I see the store Owner there. I think I'm fucked but he just talks to me about the new cameras they just installed and asks me to help him hold one up. Then he leaves and that's it. Another coworker comes up to me later on and tells me that my shift supervisor (she worked yesterday but not today and I didn't work on Tuesday) was talking to her (the other coworker) that she thinks I have a crush on her and that now things will probably be awkward. I already planned out what I'll say to her that will end this once and for all and completely mellow everything out. ________________________________________ Here's the story as condensed as I can. I started work at a new place as just part of the crew. The shift supervisor is a 23 girl and she is uber lazy. I started crushing on her, she pissed me off when she didn't help us close down after a long rush all night and I started not liking her. I started liking her again. A small period after this time, a coworker is casually talking to me and tells me that the shift supervisor is flirting with me. All the other crew agrees with her. The assistant manager is helping us close up and says that she probably has the hots for me. At this point I decide to start flirting and hitting on her. I take it too far (I admit it's my fault but it wasn't anything like hardcore sexual harassment) and I feel bad. I was going to apologize to her the next day but I get in to work (she gets in an hour after me) and the general manager asks me to step into his office and talks to me about how "a sensitive issue has arisen". I didn't know I had offended her that bad. That night I write a long personal letter apologizing and saying I was sorry and that it was unbecoming of me as a coworker and person. I leave the note for her the next day, she reads it and I guess we're back to a mutual understanding. Pretty soon all us coworkers start hanging out after work and she goes too. The other night I drank beer at her apartment and it was really cool. Well, I definitely fucked things up. We both closed memorial day and she left before me and I didn't know. I texted her "So i guess you didn't want to say goodbye? ". Wow, I'm a fucking douchebag. I texted her later on that I was so sorry and that I was an asshole. I feel like shit knowing that she is just disgusted in me and that I basically lied to her that I wouldn't do anything like that again (the letter). I'm worried now that I'm going to get fired and I just signed a lease to move in to this house. I have enough money to last rent for 4 months in case I do get fired. I'm upset with myself for doing something so stupid and just thinking with my dick and being a dick to someone who just wanted to be friends with me. I'm immature and should have never assumed it would work out with a 23 shift supervisor. I overanalyze a million different scenarios in my head at once and it drives me insane. I'm constantly worrying about something or overthinking things. The worse part is that I used to feel calm and uncaring and indifferent. Then I texted her that stuff and now I'm a nervous wreck again. I hope I don't get fired, I don't know what I'll do to myself. I hope she hates me because I hate myself. I wrote and signed a document (for myself) stating that I will stay away from her for 30 days, no texts, no hanging out alone, no conversations. Just a professional relationship. I'm such an asshole.