Im afraid to smoke again!!!

hey everybody,
this is my first time ever posting something on this website. i come to you

guys for support and some suggestions about this problem i have everytime

i smoke. I started smoking about 2 years ago, ive never had problems with

paranoia or acting stupid. i usually just smoke and relax, hang with some

friends and just enjoy myself. i stopped smoking right before i graduated

highschool, i was looking for a parttime job and just wanted to be clean for a

couple of months. i was worried about drug tests and all that good stuff, so

my friend told me about K2. I smoked it and it was amazing. i got wicked

stoned and it felt just like weed. The 4th time i smoked it, i smoked in my

room for the first time by myself, it was like 2am and i was pretty bored. i

took 2-3 hits from my bong and was already blazed. thats when shit started

to hit the fan.... i was so high that it felt like i went from using 5% of my

brain power to like 80-90%. i was thinking so much, so much that i actually

hurt my self. something in my mind was just taking over me. i started to get

this ringing sound in my ear and soon that ringing sound transformed into pain

throughout my whole body. any move that i made felt like my joints were

gonna pop. worse pain i have ever felt. i couldnt keep my mind off this thing

that was taking over it. it was literally a battle to stay sane. i layed on my

bed and tried not to move a muscle. the pain stopped but i was still getting

mind raped. i tried to play a video game... bad idea, i put on some

headphones.... bad idea. then i put on the tv. this seemed to help distract

me from the evil thing that was in my mind. When im high i tend to over

analyze EVERYTHING. like i cant help but try to find an answer or figure out

how something works. it can be how a football play works, or how the

goverment works. i just think so hard all the time. and it finally got to me

that night. but anyways, the tv seemed to be the best thing that helped me.

i ended up falling asleep 3 hours later. i woke up and i was shooken up

badly. i told my friend and he said that it might have been the k2. so like 2

months later i tried smoking weed to see if it was the k2. i was with my friend

this time. again i got super baked and went to hooters. i was trying so hard

not to go crazy, the pain wasnt there but i started to shake and twitch a

little. good thing they had the football game on or else i would have had an

incident in front of all my friends. me and my friend left and for some reason i

smoked again. we had like 2 bowl packs combined. we went to his house and

i started to feel the pain again in my legs and arms. so i told brett and he

started to talk to me to calm me down. the high wore off and i went to bed

fine. if he wasnt there i would have went crazy. that was the last time i

smoked. it was about a month ago.




so am i smoking to much? it wasnt the k2 because the weed did the same thing to me.
how do you think i should go about this situation?
i still want to smoke because i just love it.
has anyone experienced this b4?

 

i smoked weed after i smoked the k2. i thought it was only the k2 that did this to me

 

i smoked weed and i got the same feeling. and yes only when i smoke

 

i threw out the k2 after that, i went and tried marijuana 2 months later

 

naw dude, i saw my friend pick this shit from his plantt, it was straight marijuana

 

ok i guess theres something wrong with trying to get more people to see my issue. no big deal,