Fuck man, I feel like my whole life is crashing down around me. Everything I have touched this week has gone to shit, my boss tries to take advantage of my good natured attitude, my moms got cancer, my dad is an ass hole, and suzie and I are getting more and more complicated. Fuck man, my schizo is making it worse, and I just hit a depressive slump. Besides posting on the city, I havent said anything to anyone for 4 days now. I just dont know what to do, I feel so terrible inside. I am just at this point where I dont even want it all to go on anymore. I am acting so crazy, its getting kind of scary. Tonight for instance, we had a problem in the bar, some guy got drunk and started making an ass of himself, I told him he needed to leave and he pulls a knife, I looked at it for a second and quoted snoop, "Go ahead I done seen everything but the devil anyway". As soon as the guys attention was taken to something else I beat the hell out of him, bad too. I mean it took 5 guys from the kitchen staff to pull me off him, and I am really afraid if they hadnt pulled me off I would have killed the guy. I just dont know what to do.
That sounds rough man. Try to get away from your daily routine for a few days, maybe that would clear your head. Smoke some herb if it helps. Just remember, don't do anything to hurt yourself or anyone around you. Your just going through a hard time right now and you will get through it. Keep your head up.
fuck it all ! empty the clip and let god decide. nah, times will get better, everyone has little depressed periods, it will all get better sooon...
damn, that sounds really bad and i am sorry to hear ur life is going so badly. i dont really kno what to tell u except for dont give up.....things will get better eventually, i mean dosnt sound like they could get much worse. sorry man
drugs shouldnt be the answer, but perhaps some psychedelics would help you figure out what you need.becareful though, im not sure how that would react with schitzophrenia.good luck bro an never let go keep your head up
Suicide is a permenant solution for a temporary problem, just remember that shit. In due time it will all blow over, just keep on keepin'
Sorry to hear that times are bad for you, but things can and will get better. It sounds like your mom could use some support from you. Its amazing how much we really take for granted in our lives, and just being there for someone in need can sometimes make all the difference in your perspective of life. Some things you think are a big deal now could turn out to be nothing worth stressing over in the long run. I hope things turn around for you soon