I really want to take some nice rips but unfortunatley can't because of ua's for treatment and probation. Got a 21 month prison sentence hanging over my head for my next dirty ua. which i gave a dirty ua so i don't know what's going to happen next. I promised myself i would stay clean when i got out of inpatient treatment. i did four 4-1/2 months of inpatient and ddin't work. fuck
It's a constant battle in my head to not smoke but i my will power just crumbles and i end up smoking. I use a some coke the past few dyas but i ain't like smoking chronic.
Cant say I've ever been in your shoes, but thats a shitty situation all I can suggest is to stay busy wiht other things. Hang in there.
I know how you're feeling man. My parents found out that I blaze and and they said if they catch me again, they'll stop paying for college. They're gonna randomly adminster drug tests , so there's no way I can get outta that because they'll come over randomly and make me piss right in front of them. That means no using detox drinks or fake urine or anything. And so I'm not gonna risk it cause there's no way in hell I can pay for college by myself. Sigh, it sucks so bad. But at least I still have E/raves. And I think I might be ordering some Spice Gold pretty soon. But yea, I'm in this with you man.
Homie, I am in the exact situation right now, and I completely understand what you are going through! I am on Pre-Trial Intervention (PTI) right now because I got caught with under a gram of some kush! I blew my last blunt on August 13th, and I have been counting the days. Right now I'm on my 66th day clean. I was going to try and keep smoking, but with the amount of random drug test I am getting I simply can't I wont be able to smoke again until Novemember 28th, and it has been a struggle. The struggle isn't because I am addicted to weed, but because I love to do it... and the privilage has been stripped away from me to do it. I'm glad to see that someone else is sharing the same problem as I am. It's hard bro, and I know! It's hard going to a party, seeing your clique smoking and having a drink and you have to be a sober-sally and shit. It hasn't really got any easier on me either, I like weed and I want to smoke, you know? All I can say here is just buckle down, it's been hell on me and I know it will on you too. Let's just get the legal binds we are in right now taken care of, and when we get done the sweet holy herb will be there waiting on us. Just keep a good mind set, and do it man! I know you can! If you need anyone to talk to feel free to pm me! Good luck bro and stay strong!
Hey I know how that shit is. I was DT'd for 5 years, in and out of jail for pissing hot. but man I SWEAR when you get off, smoking and knowing, I dont have to go test ever again.... Is the best feeling in the world. The only way I made it, honesty, was I went to mexico and picked up a couple thousand somas, since they arent tested for.
Yeah I'm in the court system for a while so I've been trying to keep busy with other things. I was clean for like 130+ plus day but i blew when i smoked 2 bowls with the wrong buddy. Since I failed a ua and when i went to court in may of 07 the judge gave me strict warnings not to use or it's prison time. I got a dwonward deperatue and instead of getting the prison the judge cut me slack and i got a six months sentence in county. I plead guilty to dcs of exstacy. a class a felony. I got probation for 2 countys now. i got one p.o for both but if i get a dirty ua or comitt a crime i can get sacntions for 2 countys. So yeah I failed a ua after the judge told me that. About 2 weeks a go is when i failed. I had a ua that moring for inpatient and the next tuesday had another ua. So 2 back to back. So i'm deciding so leave state or just man up and be accountable for my actions.
In Mexico a thousand is about $300 and some change. I think I spent $950 up there total. I had picked up a pack of Xanax 2's and Valium 10's as well.