Hey everybody, I'm kind of an unexperienced member here. I think I've only posted a couple times, so excuse me if this thread is in the wrong place. Anyway let me get to the point. I'm thinking about quitting (or cutting back) on toking. I'll start by telling you a little about my childhood. It was traumatic to say the least. My dad was/is an alcoholic and a drug addict. Name pretty much any drug you can think of and he abused it. These problems tore our family apart and practically ruined my adolescent years. The severe stress led to anxiety and depression that I still deal with daily (I'm 18 now btw), even though he's been clean for a while now. Now, I've been smoking weed for a little over a year now. On average 3-4 times a week I'd say. At first I loved it, but now most of the time when I smoke I just get depressed. I know marijuana is no where near as dangerous as the drugs he was using, but I still feel as if I'm kind of repeating the pattern and that I'm going to end up doing the same things to my family that he did to me. It's unlikely, cause I don't drink or use other drugs (nor do I have any desire to) but it still reminds me of him everytime I take a hit off a joint. And then it starts to bring back those painful memories and I can't even enjoy the high. I'm just really confused because I used to really enjoy toking up and I know that I'm not hurting people by doing it like he was when he was using drugs. But still, I just can't get it out of my head. What do you guys think I should do?