I've had weird thoughts and visions that something bad will happen to me before I ever make anything of myself. I just got let go from yet another job after they were cutting people in my department left and right. It was a shitty job, but it paid my bills nonetheless. Now, I'm back at square one -- no job, bills with no way to pay for them except the money in my savings account, no significant other, living at home, no prospects... I'm not an angry person. When told I was let go, I actually said, "Thanks for the opportunity" and humbly walked out. It was like it didn't really happen. I feel like I'm sometimes too smart for my own good and waiting for the perfect opportunity to arrive and it hasn't. I've worked dead-end jobs for the last two years, been screwed by people and now I'm at a loss. I might just go somewhere far, far away. Bye.